These are the 30 questions I have for my ex.
1. Why wasn't I good enough? I'm sorry I couldn't be what you needed or wanted.
2. What changed?
3. Were you ever happy? If I look through our pictures, you seem happy. Guess I didn't know you like I thought I did.
4. Have you met someone yet? If it's someone new, I hope they make you very happy. If it's someone you've known, well I guess that's why you've kept them in your life for so long and I guess I should've seen it coming.
5. Do you ever think of me? I constantly think of you and even when I try to eliminate any and all thoughts of you, I honestly don't want to.
6. Are you happy? Since you're no longer with me, you must be.
7. How is your family?
8. Did you actually want to marry me? Was that all just a lie?
9. Did you really think I was beautiful? You always called me beautiful and I still don't see how you could possibly think that.
10. How could you just up and leave? I wish I could've somehow been prepared for that.
11. Do you regret anything, do you regret us? I'm so sorry if you regret us. I never meant for that to happen.
12. What have you been up to?
13. Do you miss me? I miss you like crazy, but then I remember that you're not mine anymore and I get angry instead.
14. Do you ever want to call me? I need to know if I'm ever on your mind at 4 AM and you just want to call me because if I'm not, I know that I never, ever really mattered and I still don't.
15. What's your favorite memory of us? I can't even choose one single memory because being with you was always the best thing.
16. What do you actually think of my body?
17. Are you still chasing your dreams?
18. Are you smiling? Please tell me that you are. Your smile could make the saddest person in the world want to smile because it's that beautiful.
19. Do you ever want me back? As much as I don't want to admit it, you could call me right now and ask me to be with you and I would say yes in a heartbeat.
20. Do your friends hate me? I imagine that they do.
21. Do you ever dream of me?
22. Do you think I'm pathetic? I think I'm pretty pathetic sometimes for still wanting you. You're not the same person that I fell in love with, or maybe you were and I was just blinded.
23. Have you kissed or had sex with anyone yet? I don't even think I could handle the answer.
24. If you could tell me anything, what would you say?
25. Do you remember what we told each other? Do you remember the thing you told me that no one else knows. Yeah, that made me feel special.
26. Do you hate me now? I know you could probably never hate me, but I still want to know if you do.
27. Do you still ever look at my Facebook or Instagram pages?
28. Have you moved on? If you have, that's great and I'm happy for you, but I'm still stuck here like an idiot who can't.
29. Do you ever wish we were still together? I don't know why I'd even ask that because if you really wanted me, then you'd be with me.
30. What were your real intentions? Did you really love me and want me or was it all just a facade.
I don't think I could ever ask you these questions because your answer could actually tear me apart, but I hope you're laughing and doing what makes you happy. I hope you don't regret us. I hope you reach for the stars (even if that's corny). I hope you succeed. I hope you keep that beautiful smile on display because the world is honestly better when you smile. I hope that you never give up. I hope you're happy and well. I hope you find someone who loves you as much as I do. And if you find them, don't ever let them go.




















