Irises shrink

Sun too bright

Thought process shut down

Frightened pleas to stop now

Never manage to leave my lips

Watching but not quite seeing

Hands splayed on the

Dirty carpet floor

Not soft

Breaths are shallow

Sharp pains fade instantly

Not warm not cold numbness

The only thing moving rapidly is

Frantic heart beating loud now

Ears full of static

Full of what?

Kind words

Craving sweet lies

Permanently wipe them away

The ground is not comfortable

No signs of it stopping soon

I want to leave now

I can not scream

Must not fight

It's scary

My mouth feels

Full of cotton, maybe

The seconds on the clock

Give me no indication of time

Has it been three hours?

The sunlight is still

Piercing my eyes

Too bright

Short ragged breath

Can't get enough air

My patience runs thin now

But I can't do anything rash

I am overpowered, I am

Too tired to fight

It was planned

My energy

Was all drained

A few hours ago

Yet I was too foolish

Despite the warning signs, I leapt

Without thinking too much now

I hate that I'm

At your mercy

Go away

I struggle to

Seek a way out

My mind has odd priorities

I have not eaten much today

Food's what I want now

Though it's kinda strange

I have realized

I know

How to escape

It's all so simple

I have to play dead

Or near dead. That's good enough

Once I'm out of here

I won't come back

I'll leave here

I'll forget

With exaggerated shakes

And many grand theatrics

They believe my convincing lies

I struggle to regain full control

Of my weary heavy limbs

Maybe I wasn't lying

Mind and body

Aren't synced

Once I can

Once I can leave

Once I am finally free

I can pretend that this never

Wipe the entire hard drive

I'll go far away

I never want

To feel

This way again

So I feel relieved

When you finally let go

And I walk alone towards safety

I refuse to turn around

To acknowledge you

I hate

Those harsh hands

That left my arms

Splotchy purple red and blue

That left my body aching and

Sore for weeks after you

Tried to break me

Congrats on that

Thank you

For breaking my trust

Don't worry. I promise

That I will forget everything

My specialty is to forget feeling

Then again perhaps I am

A little bit better at

bottling things up

Until they

e x p l o d e

But only time

Will tell

Whether I can

Keep quiet

Or if instead

I decide

That I feel

Like Screaming