You honestly haven't been happy in a long time. They sucked the happiness right out of you. And you didn't even realize it. They made you think You'd be happy if you did everything to make them happy. Even when you got nothing in return. The more and more you tried, the less and less they tried. But you were too focused on being perfect for them and doing everything to make them happy. They made you think as long as they were happy and taken care of, things would be perfect. They sucked the life out of you though. They damaged you emotionally. They made you forget who you were before you met them. They got mad over the smallest things, even when you couldn't control it. They made you forget that you have your own worth. They made you think you couldn't do anything or be anything without them. They took away all of your independence. They tricked you into thinking this was okay and you let them. You put up with it because you were convinced that this was love. Love; you do everything to make them happy no matter how it makes you feel. No. They didn't make you happy. At one time they might have for a minute. Then it went downhill from there.

I guess that's what toxic people do to you. They make you feel like the most amazing, important person on the planet. And that's how they lock you in. You are then attached. They make you feel as if no one else could ever love you or treat you better. But someone else can. It's not that they were a terrible person, because sometimes they did make you feel so special. But you don't deserve to be half loved. Loved when it's only convenient to them. You deserved to be loved completely, not half way. You put up with being half loved for so long. You felt like there was no way out.

But eventually you got tired. You got sick of putting in the effort just to be let down again. And when you got the courage to speak up about how you felt, you were labeled as "crazy" or "too emotional". You are not crazy. You are not to emotional. You felt the way you have. What you should have felt a long time ago. But you were too attached to think outside of them.

It's not your fault they can't see how good you are. You are amazing. One day they will realize it. One day they will wish they would have treated you better. But by then it will be to late. You will have moved on. You will have realized what real love is supposed to be like. You will have found someone that knew exactly how to make you feel important all the time, not just partially. I'm not saying it will be perfect, because nothing is perfect. But it will be close to perfect. Don't give up just because someone didn't realize your worth. They will. Trust me. But you won't be there anymore. It will be too late for them. They will regret not treating you the way you deserved.

And that's why you have to stay strong. Know what you want. Don't settle for less. You are damaged, but you are so strong, independent, and worth more than you know. You did all you could and it still wasn't good enough. It's not your fault, it's their inability to see your worth. And that's not your problem, that's their problem. Know your worth. Know you deserve better. And that's how you will thrive.