We all know what it feels like to have a bad day - like nothing we do is right and no matter what we do, nothing seems to work in our favor. I know what it feels like... One thing after another; and you just can't seem to catch a break.
We all have (or should have) that one person that we can go to about anything and everything. That person you can text at 2 AM when you are alone and just need someone to talk to because your thoughts are overwhelming your head. Someone who knows what subjects are sensitive to you and knows not to bring them up, but will be the first person you want to talk to about it when you're ready.
That person you text when someone makes you so mad you just want to scream, and they let you vent it all out with no judgment. That person who listens and understands you more than you do yourself. They start to become your other half without you even realizing it. They become the person you send your outfits to and ask, "Does this look good?" The person you send screenshots to and ask for help on how to respond. The person who knows you like the back of their hand.
"You're like the Meredith to my Christina."
And if you're like me, it's not easy to let people in. Once you get hurt one too many times, you build a wall up, and it's really difficult to trust and open up to someone... But, it's okay because you're not the only one.
I've had two people I considered "my person" at two different points in my life. They knew how to help me and what to say when I was crying. They learned so much about me. They got to know about my past and what makes me, me. But shit happens and we are at the age where you either grow together or you grow apart... And that's okay. It's okay to go your separate ways because you have different interests or goals in mind.
It hurts when someone, especially your person, decides to walk out of your life... It's definitely one of the hardest things I've gone through emotionally. I guess it's because they literally become your other half. You basically live at each other's house, you go everywhere together, and you get so close that when someone invites you to do something, they already know he/she is coming along with you.
Losing them sort of feels like you lost a little piece of yourself, but trust me it's normal.
It's okay to hurt and it's okay to cry and it's okay to miss them. It's okay to text them and ask how they are doing and to just check in. It's okay to feel sad and wish they never left. But, at some point, you have to pick up the broken pieces and with all the strength in you, find a way to move on. It won't be easy, no one ever said anything in life was easy... But you will get through it. Some nights are harder than others, but listen to your sad music, cry as much as you want, and wake up the next morning and become stronger.
Remember that things change. Feelings change - but that's life.








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