Where will you be in 5 years? Where will you be in 10 years? 15 years? 25 years? How scary is it to try to think that far ahead in your life? I couldn’t tell you what I am doing tomorrow, how am I supposed to know where I will be in 5, 10, 25 years?!

Sometimes, I feel like I am pressured into having to know what I am going to do with the rest of my life. I feel like I am held to a certain standard by my friends and my family and society in general. I feel like sometimes I am not living up to that standard. I don’t know what I am going to do with my life. I have no idea where I am going to end up in the future.

I have learned from experience that things can change in a split second. You are here one day and the next day you are gone. My mind can change in a split second. On my way into town, I think I want a cheeseburger and fries for dinner and I end up coming home with Chinese take-out. If I can’t decide on what to eat for dinner how am I supposed to tell you where I am going to be in 10 years?

I can hope that I will be in a really good place in 10 years. Own my own house, or rent, I’m not too picky, have a steady job/income, maybe a dog or cat or both. I am so indecisive. My idea of a ‘good place’ might not be the same if you ask me tomorrow or a month from now. You could ask me a question and then 2 weeks later ask me the same question and I won’t answer it the same way. Chances are I won’t even remember how I answered the first time.

This article turned into a rant about how I don’t know what I want for dinner. The point of this was to show you that it is totally okay if you don’t know where the future is going to take you. It is okay to be scared of the future. It is okay to be indecisive. I am all those things and I would say I am doing pretty well. I’m in college, I am doing amazing things, I am on a good path. I have no doubt that you are too.