If I could write a letter to me there's so much I would tell my younger self. To start with, I'd tell her that her first heartbreak won't be her last and that it stings just as bad every single time. I would warn her not to fall in love so easily because it's true; I wear my heart on my sleeves. If I could, I wish I could warn her about the jerks she spent so much time worrying about, constantly waiting for approval and wanting them to like her. I'd beg her to love herself.
If I could write a letter to me I'd tell myself not to worry so much. I've always been an anxious person; you wouldn't know it from my outgoing appearance, but I internalize everything. I'd tell myself to quit being so high strong and let go of all the negative people, places and things. The people that make you cry? They're not worth your tears. The people that watch you crumble and don't do a damn thing to help build you back up? You don't need them. Stop worrying about everyone else and start worrying about YOU. I'd tell myself that loving yourself is not selfish. You love everyone and take on their troubles to a fault. But what about you?
If I could write a letter to me I'd make sure to tell myself a few nice things about myself. The truth is, I'm my own worst critic. It would be nice to tell my high school self that I looked HOT in my prom dress. And the guy who ditched you two weeks before ball? He missed out because you rocked that purple dress! Where were those things when I needed to hear them most? When I was a Junior in high school and falling apart, I wish I could have told myself how brave it would make me. I would tell myself that no man can break a woman that has been through what I have and has come out the other side STRONGER.
If I could write a letter to me I'd ask myself to slow down. To stop wishing time away. To stop hoping for disaster. To stop causing chaos. To sit back for five minutes and enjoy the simple pleasures.
And even with all of that said, I'd write it and never send it.
Because the lessons, especially the hard ones, have made me who I am today and wouldn't trade that for the world.
