We're going into a new year, and you may not feel like celebrating. You may feel like it's just another day. Another day that can be good or another day that can be hard. And right now your outlook is saying it's going to be hard.
Life is hard. I know. There are so many emotions and things that you will go through. You already have such a history and now you are at this point. You stand here and you feel like you are not worthy, that your life doesn't matter, that you are questioning everything in your life. Why? What is your purpose? What significance does your life make? You're fighting your own battles and you're having trouble finding strength.
You need to watch these. These are from Jon Jorgenson, the creator of the Anima Series. They each have the same message, one geared more toward women, one geared more toward men. Both are beneficial.
You are more than you ever imagined, than you ever believe yourself to be or not be. You may have thought that you messed up in the past (or you did mess up in the past), but worrying about that past shouldn’t let you mess up your future.
Don’t put yourself down so easily.
Mistakes are mistakes. We all make them. Don’t bury yourself in the little mistakes. Don’t keep yourself awake at 3 AM thinking about a little mistake you made years ago that no one had noticed or would even remember. You missed a note in a concert? No one noticed. You fumbled a joke once? Keyword is once. Larger mistakes, yes they can be unfortunate, but you shouldn’t let them rule your life. Those are the mistakes that yeah, you give more thought and reflection to, but you should think of them as things to learn from, not something to dwell on. Keep them on file in the recesses of your mind just as a faded memory, a map, to be cliché, to guide you and to prevent you from making that mistake again.
Your gifts are what you contribute to this broken world.
If only you could see the qualities I (and the rest of the world) see and believe them, wholeheartedly. You are wonderfully made. The qualities you possess- your ambition, charm, enthusiasm, athleticism, musicality, intentionality, spirituality, thoughtfulness, humor, whatever it may be- you share with those around you. Don’t ever sell yourself short of who you are and the qualities you possess. Sometimes if you constantly share these traits, you deplete yourself (believe me, I know) and it can leave you feeling alone, empty. That’s when you need to surround yourself with people who will always lift you up, those people that, when you’re depleted, will stand by you and refill and restore you.
Sometimes if you spread yourself between many groups you may feel that you don’t have that many people who will be there for you. That, in the end, you have many acquaintances, few friends, and you feel alone.
You are NEVER alone.
The only one you should be high-key concerned about being worthy for is Christ. And you will always be worthy. How do I know? I know because God gave his only Son to be sacrificed on the cross for each and every one of us. You are part of that “each and every.” No matter what you’ve been through, no matter what you’ve put others through, no matter how “perfectly” you’ve lived or how many mistakes you’ve made along the way, you are WORTHY.
And when you feel like none of this is true, when people tell you that you aren't worthy or your self doubt becomes too much and you feel like you're at your lowest, do as Jon Jorgenson said in the videos. Say:
"Nuh uh. Not me Satan. I am a [child] of the living God, cherished, loved, and adored above all things by the creator of all things for the glory of him who is greater than all things. I. AM. AWESOME."
You will overcome. You will do great things this year. You will be extraordinary.
"Be who God meant for you to be and you will set the world on fire." - St. Catherine of Siena.