If I Didn't Have Anxiety

If I Didn't Have Anxiety

I'd be real life friends with the girls who comment on my Instagram.
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In a place far, far away, in a world where I didn't live with anxiety, I would be a new me. I am not ashamed of my disorder. In fact, I don't even refer to it as a disorder because it is simply what makes me me. However, I am well aware that my life would be completely different without this small bump-in-the-road. If it wasn't an obstacle in my life, this is how I would live accordingly.

I'd go to church regularly. I don't not go to church because I'm a heathen, I swear. It's just a little too much for me. The idea of sitting in a large group of people makes me unreasonably nervous. Even more so, I don't like the idea of being a "new comer". Please, no, don't introduce me. I appreciate it, but please don't welcome me. Oh, please, don't pass me the offering plate, because I'll have to pass it to someone, too. Someone I don't know. If I didn't have anxiety, I'd go to church as often as I could.

I'd have more friends. Talking to anyone I don't know very well doesn't come very naturally to me. I'm definitely not the kind of girl to ask the girl who complimented my nails at the drive-thru to have a sleepover with me (this is a reference to a video by @hiitaylorblake on Twitter). I want to be, though. If I gave myself the chance, I could have so many friends. If I didn't have anxiety, I'd be real life friends with the girls who comment on my Instagram.

I'd drink more coffee. Okay, this one sounds silly, but let me explain. Coffee is my favorite drink, ever. Unfortunately, though, coffee is known to enhance the symptoms of anxiety. Granted, I still drink it, though. The consequences aren't nearly as sweet as this mocha macchiato tastes. The excessive amounts of caffeine make me a lot more uneasy than I would normally be. This means no coffee before any kind of social affair, hard class, or important event. If I didn't have anxiety, I'd get a venti Vanilla Sweet Cream Cold Brew everyday.

I wouldn't be me. Though I'd love to be able to do these things without being so scared, I wouldn't be who I am without my anxiety. I'm slowly but surely learning to overcome my fears, but I know it will always be there and that's okay. Without this disorder, I wouldn't love as hard as I do. For me, opening up to someone is a big deal. With that being said, I tend to love a lot more genuinely. Without it, I wouldn't be as kept to myself. Though, this can be a negative, I view it as a positive. I don't tell my secrets to just anyone or lay my trust in the hands of just anyone. I am selective and discerning and I like that about me. If I didn't have anxiety, I wouldn't be myself.

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7 Signs You're Addicted To Dunkin' Donuts

Because who doesn't love coffee?
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Waking up early in the morning can be a hard process. When you’re tired and you have to commute to school or work, keeping your eyes open can be a huge struggle. So, maybe you stop for a coffee at Dunkin’ Donuts. You say to yourself, “It's okay, its right on the way, it will only take me five minutes.”

Soon, every day after you find yourself continuing to stop at that same Dunkin’ Donuts because you cannot get through the morning without your cup of coffee.

Are you addicted? Probably. But who isn’t?

Here are some signs that will let you know that you’re addicted to Dunkin’ Donuts:

1. Find Yourself Driving There As a Normal Routine.

You know you have a problem, when you find yourself turning into the Dunkin’ Donuts parking lot without even thinking about it. Driving and stopping there on your daily routine to work or school becomes a normal stop for you and you don’t even have to think about it.

2. You’re Cranky When You Don’t Have it.

The day that you do not have time to stop for a Dunkin’ Donuts coffee is the day that everyone should steer clear of you. You find yourself unusually tired and cranky and maybe even a little annoyed because you did not get a chance to enjoy your morning coffee.

3. You Plan Ahead in Your Schedule and Leave Early To Get it.

Whether you are driving to work early, or you have an early morning class for school, you know you have an addiction when you plan to leave extra early so that you have time to stop for your morning cup of coffee. You calculate exactly how much time it takes to get to school and how early you should leave so that you will be able to make a stop at your local Dunkin’. Extra time is always good too because who knows? Maybe you’ll get a breakfast sandwich too.

4. Your Hand Feels Empty Without it, Feel Like You’re Forgetting Something.

When you do not have time to stop for your morning coffee, getting out of the car without it feels strange. You almost feel like something is missing from your hand and that you’re forgetting something. This is when you know you have become a Dunkin’ addict.

5. Your Wallet is Unusually Empty.

Your love for Dunkin’ Donuts coffee becomes a problem once you open your wallet and realize you have no cash in it. All of your money goes towards Dunkin’, and you specifically take cash out the bank so that you have it for your morning commute.

6. Workers There Know Your Name and Order.

You know that you spend too much time at a place when the workers start to call you by your first name. They know your specific order as soon as you walk through the door and before you can even ask what you want they say, “Medium hot, extra extra?”

7. You’d Rather Receive a Dunkin’ Gift Card, Instead of Cash as a Gift.

Your true addiction shows when you get more excited about receiving a Dunkin’ Donuts gift card than you are about receiving cash. At this time, you see the gift card more valuable than cash because now you don’t have to feel bad about spending all your money on coffee. But honestly, who ever feels bad about that?

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The Cold, Refreshing, Stimulating Truth About Energy Drinks

Am I ruining my body with these? Am I going to DIE???

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The thing about energy drinks... they have a bad rap.

I often bring one to work and then my coworkers will begin to tell me how bad they are for my health. And then I usually reply with how delicious they are or something. Because quite frankly, I absolutely love energy drinks.

I never have more than one on the same day, and I don't drink 5-Hour Energy or any of those energy shots. THOSE can't be safe. I also don't drink Redbull for some reason. I have always thought that they weren't good for you and so I guess I just stand by that. But I drink every flavor of Monster and Rockstar and have now expanded my horizons to Nos, Bang, etc. I sip them like a drink, I don't chug them or start my day with them. Usually. And I like to get the sugar-free or low-calorie ones, although that's a whole other debate on whether or not it's healthier to digest real sugar or fake sweetener.

But my habits are not the focus of this article. Instead, I want to summarize some of the factual information about energy drinks and why you shouldn't assume I'm going to have a heart attack after I finish my delicious beverage. Now, I admit right off the bat that I didn't do any extensive research about this, I didn't look into cases of specific people's injuries or experiences, I just want to state a few facts to put this entire debate into perspective:

The average Monster has anywhere from 140-160 mg of caffeine in a 16oz can. This is the equivalent of a tall Starbucks cafe Americano. And ordering an Americano every morning is perfectly fine to most people.

My absolute favorite flavor of Monster is the Pipeline Punch from the Monster Juice series. This one is not low-calorie or low-sugar, it's just a normal Monster drink. It has 23g of sugar in it. Arguably one of the most popular sugary Starbucks drinks is the caramel macchiato. The grande size has 33g of sugar in it. Not to mention, it's also the exact same caffeine count as an energy drink.

Anytime you order your Starbucks drink with an extra shot, that's an added 75mg of caffeine. So with every double shot or even triple shot, if you dare, you are well over the caffeine amount of 99% of energy drinks.

In light of these facts, it's still fair to criticize energy drinks because of their artificial, sugary nature. Sure, carbonated sugary drinks lead to teeth erosion and dental issues. But then how come people don't freak out every time the waiter asks if you would like a Coke with that?

The Bang drinks actually require you be over eighteen to purchase them. Grocery stores treat it like alcohol and ask for your ID before buying. And maybe this is how it should be for every energy drink brand. It would surely help prevent young children and teens from over-consuming something that they probably don't need in their systems at a young age.

As for bodily defects as a result of drinking energy drinks—do everything in moderation! Stories are released of people drinking energy drinks and then dying from heart attacks or what have you. But 99% of the time it's because they drank three in a row or mixed them with substances you shouldn't be mixing them with. These aren't just drinks. People should be taking them seriously. You wouldn't throw back five shots of tequila and then not expect to suffer the consequences or order three triple shot lattes and not expect to feel a little heartburn afterward.

So, I urge you to take this with a grain of salt. 99% of the time I drink an energy drink, it just keeps me from falling asleep. It doesn't really give me energy or make me stay awake. So maybe I have an extremely high tolerance to caffeine, but I see it as evidence that energy drinks can't be that bad for you or else the supposed "high" levels of chemicals and caffeine would have you bouncing off the walls every single time.

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