If I Didn't Have Anxiety

If I Didn't Have Anxiety

I'd be real life friends with the girls who comment on my Instagram.

In a place far, far away, in a world where I didn't live with anxiety, I would be a new me. I am not ashamed of my disorder. In fact, I don't even refer to it as a disorder because it is simply what makes me me. However, I am well aware that my life would be completely different without this small bump-in-the-road. If it wasn't an obstacle in my life, this is how I would live accordingly.

I'd go to church regularly. I don't not go to church because I'm a heathen, I swear. It's just a little too much for me. The idea of sitting in a large group of people makes me unreasonably nervous. Even more so, I don't like the idea of being a "new comer". Please, no, don't introduce me. I appreciate it, but please don't welcome me. Oh, please, don't pass me the offering plate, because I'll have to pass it to someone, too. Someone I don't know. If I didn't have anxiety, I'd go to church as often as I could.

I'd have more friends. Talking to anyone I don't know very well doesn't come very naturally to me. I'm definitely not the kind of girl to ask the girl who complimented my nails at the drive-thru to have a sleepover with me (this is a reference to a video by @hiitaylorblake on Twitter). I want to be, though. If I gave myself the chance, I could have so many friends. If I didn't have anxiety, I'd be real life friends with the girls who comment on my Instagram.

I'd drink more coffee. Okay, this one sounds silly, but let me explain. Coffee is my favorite drink, ever. Unfortunately, though, coffee is known to enhance the symptoms of anxiety. Granted, I still drink it, though. The consequences aren't nearly as sweet as this mocha macchiato tastes. The excessive amounts of caffeine make me a lot more uneasy than I would normally be. This means no coffee before any kind of social affair, hard class, or important event. If I didn't have anxiety, I'd get a venti Vanilla Sweet Cream Cold Brew everyday.

I wouldn't be me. Though I'd love to be able to do these things without being so scared, I wouldn't be who I am without my anxiety. I'm slowly but surely learning to overcome my fears, but I know it will always be there and that's okay. Without this disorder, I wouldn't love as hard as I do. For me, opening up to someone is a big deal. With that being said, I tend to love a lot more genuinely. Without it, I wouldn't be as kept to myself. Though, this can be a negative, I view it as a positive. I don't tell my secrets to just anyone or lay my trust in the hands of just anyone. I am selective and discerning and I like that about me. If I didn't have anxiety, I wouldn't be myself.

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10 Reasons Moe's Will Always And Forever Be Superior To Chipotle

Welcome to Moe's!

With the great debate between which burrito place is the best, here are 10 reasons why Moe's is clearly the better option than Chipotle. *Side note, I do like Chipotle, but Moe's will always be No. 1 in my heart.


You don't get this kind of hospitality from Chipotle.

2. Their menu is much larger.

Moe's offers burritos, quesadillas, nachos, burrito bowls, tacos, salads, and they all have cool names! Chipotle just has burritos, bowls, tacos, and salads. BORING.

3. They offer a variety of toppings.

Moe's offers over 20 fresh ingredients while Chipotle has...barely anything. :/

4. Moe Monday.

$5 BURRITOS!!!!! Seriously no one can beat that.

5. Their prices in general.

At Chipotle it's $6.50 just for a for a burrito alone. Add on chips, guac and a drink and that's roughly $13. At Moe's you can get a burrito, chips, unlimited salsa, and a drink for $8.80. Add on queso and that's only $1.25 more. (But totally worth it!!!) Which brings me to my next case...

6. QUESO!!!!!!!!!!

Queso is bae. That is all.

7. Free chips and a salsa bar!

We don't pay extra here.

8. The atmosphere at Moe's just feels better.

Chipotle's are usually tiny little restaurants that barely have any tables. Every time I go to Chipotle I feel rushed to eat my food because people are usually hovering over you looking for a seat. Moe's is like five times it size and they play good music.

9. Moe's is made with FRESH ingredients.

I'm not even gonna get into the whole Chipotle situation...

10. Overall, Moe's just tastes better than Chipotle.

Sorry 'bout it.

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10 Reasons To Start Vaping In 2019 If You Haven't Yet

"It's safer than cigarettes"


Vaping is the rage these days among adolescents and college students. Here are some great reasons to start!

1. It's what all the cool kids do


I wish that I could be like the cool kids

2. It damages your lungs


It's not like you need these to breathe or anything

3. It pollutes the air


Let's pollute the air even more!

4. Nicotine addiction

Just the thing I want to be addicted to

5. "Delicious" flavors


Would you prefer mango flavor or the cancer flavor?

6. The Juul looks like a USB


Your parents won't suspect a thing

7. Inhale metals like nickel and lead


Yummmmmm. Lead poisoning isn't a thing.

8. More likely to get infections


9. You'll eventually want cigarettes


And you'll make your lungs worse

10. Lung and mouth cancer


Who doesn't want cancer

In case you couldn't tell, this was very sarcastic. If you want all of these things, then go ahead, start vaping. But you should know what you're getting yourself into and be prepared for the consequences.

If you already vape, I mean no disrespect and I'm not trying to hate on you, but you should seriously stop. Whatever you think is a good reason for vaping really is not a good enough reason to damage your body.

Stop vaping. And if you don't vape, don't start. Just don't.

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