How do you know if the timing of life is ever on time? You go through life wondering if the timing of wonderful and even tragic events are presenting themselves at the correct part of your life. Breakups often happen because the timing of the love you want to endure is off. You may still have feelings for an ex lover or you found this person right as your life is about to take off in another direction. Devastating moments, like losing a family member or being fired from your only job, happen to good people everyday and the problem is not being able to figure out why it happened to you. But the question is, why does life seem to spring these moments of bad timing on us?
My life is full of bad timing. I always find the right answers when the situation is long gone. I always want the boy who seems to be headed elsewhere in life or I am falling for someone as I move to another state. My life has been a series of unfortunate events, but lately the bad timing has been making me think. Is it really even the timing that sucks or is it the situation that has been presented in your life? I sat alongside the river of my college town and pondered today about timing. The moments that you feel like you don't deserve are the moments that are given to you to make you feel alive. Feelings are a part of your life and when you are pushed to your limits and tested in life, it is the reason that we exist. To hurt, to wonder, to not know why things happen is a reassuring feeling of living. No one will ever know why we lose the one who makes us happiest or fall apart from a close friend when we move away, but even tho the timing may be off, there is no reason to give up hope on the timing being right in the future.
As I step into the future of tomorrow, I hope that the timing will be right someday soon. I hope that wherever I may end up, whomever I may stumbled upon next and the endeavors I find myself within, that I see the timing as a good thing. Challenge yourself to not question the timing of the unfortunate events of life, but find the greater meaning behind the problems that exist within your life. Timing may always be a little off, but to live and to feel alive is a reason worth going through things at the wrong time.
