Sometimes I really, really, really think too highly of myself. By that, I mean that I truly believe that I’m going to become something extraordinary. I believe that I’m going to do something so good in this world that I will cause a giant shake in the earth's core. I mean, I want to be something. I HAVE to be something.
I want to reach out my hand and touch every individual soul and radiate nothing but endless beams of sunlight. I want to flash a smile at someone and make them feel unconditionally loved in that split second gesture. I can’t really explain it; what this movement is that I feel. I don’t have an explanation because sometimes you can’t explain things that are simply too raw and too giant for anyone to understand or handle.
This movement isn’t about money or friends or the dumb sh*t they teach you in school. This movement is about pure connection. Not just connecting with random people, but literally connecting people. Connecting everyone. It’s okay that I might sound crazy. I might sound like I don’t know what the f*ck I’m talking about, and maybe that’s inevitably true, but I’m here...
I'm here just existing and waiting. I’m here watching so many things go wrong and I’m watching so many people live a pointless and miserable life and I can’t let that happen anymore. It just doesn’t cut it for me. I can’t let myself, or anyone else, be dragged into the societal pressures that seem to follow you throughout your whole life. I can’t let myself leave this earth without inspiring and spreading love to every single person that I meet. It matters. Every bit of love matters.
I don’t want to be that person that just says these things, I want to be the person who genuinely changes the world. I want to be the person who goes out of their way and gives and gives without expecting a single thing in return. I want to start a movement bigger than myself; bigger than the universe. I want to expand my knowledge and learn everything single thing possible because that’s what life is about. It’s about evolving and changing and loving.
I don’t know how I’m going to possibly begin to start a wave of change when I’m this 20-year-old woman from Albany, New York, but I do know that I will never give up. I will never miss a single chance to spread positivity and awareness and love and pride and change. I will not stop even if it kills me. I can’t live my life without creating and succeeding in making a change because that’s what I want my life to be.
I will make a change. I will cause a giant shake in the earths core; might even knock it off it’s axis. You can undoubtedly bet on that.
