For as long as I can remember, I've always been a very big day-dreamer which didn't make paying attention in high school easy at all. I would day-dream about legitimately everything. From what I would do if I won the lottery to being able to one day tour the world while playing music, nothing was or still is off limits to where my mind wanders. My mind kept going at what seemed light speed into every which way. I was scared of this if we're being honest.
For a while I thought of this as a weakness. I thought this was my ultimate Achilles heel. The fact that I couldn't stop coming up with what was deemed strange thoughts, creative visions, and huge dreams scared me and when I attempted to share these dreams with those closest to me, I was chastised and told to try to pay attention more and make my dreams more realistic. I ultimately decided to suppress these dreams and visions I had and never speak of them again. That was roughly six years ago.
About two years ago I began my journey into the creative world. I began diving into photography, graphic design, making videos and the like. I automatically became obsessed with it and found that I was actually slightly talented at it. I immediately realized that I had found the reason I was made such a creative day-dreamer. God had gifted me to be creative and to share my creativity in such a way that pointed people back to Him and ultimately gave Him more glory than I ever could have if I would have continued to suppress these thoughts any more. These thoughts were mostly about ways to give my King the most glory through the ways He had gifted me and that was exactly the way God had planned it.
I say all this to tell you that you were made the way you were for a reason. Don't hide from the way you were made. Embrace it. God uses the most uncanny things to bring Himself the most glory. You were wired the way you were for a reason. I heard a quote one time from Mark Twain that has stuck with me for the longest time. Twain says: “The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why.” I encourage you to be introspective and find how God created you differently from everyone. The next step is to find a way to give Him glory through whatever you found inside yourself. You were made for a specific reason. Find it. Much love and God bless.
