One of my favorite things to do is to watch crazy videos on YouTube. I love the videos of people who cause accidents. It drives me nuts to figure out how some of these teens get into these buildings they do parkour on top of.
Anything that gets my heart racing or makes me feel inspired just immediately catches and keeps my attention for hours on end.
I never really understood why before, but as I spend my days doing the same routine, I realize it's because I want that to be my life.
I want to feel the salt water slamming against my falling body while I'm cliff jumping. I dream of skydiving and feel the pressure of the world in a different way.
I have that urge to go camping on a beach and fall in love overnight. I want to start a movement.
These are things normal people always tell you they would never be able to do, but not me. I didn't receive a heart transplant so I could hide from the world. I wasn't saved from certain death so I could be normal.
I was born with a purpose higher than myself. I want to save endangered animals and sail across the oceans. I need to teach children that it is okay to be sad, and it's okay to be depressed, but don't live there.
I've lost friends along my heart transplant journey. Death isn't an easy thing, but for us, it's only normal.
I once felt a connection to my transplant donor that I don't feel anymore. I don't have dreams about him anymore, but I know he's there. I feel like I owe it to the people I love and the people I've lost. I need to do this for them, have a life for them.
I need to prove that my second chances won't be wasted and I'll use them for what they're intended for: to live.
Most importantly, I want to be kind to myself.
I find myself always fighting my inner demons over the things I cannot change. I choose to find my own path, to change the things I can, and to accept those I can not.
I have the mind of a worrier and the soul of a warrior. I may scare easily, but I choose to keep fighting because racing to that finish line is the biggest thrill I could receive in my lifetime.
I've made decisions that have negatively impacted my life, and I have been quick to give up on myself. But the universe has a plan for me and I will not give up until my soul is satisfied.
I want to be kind to myself because If I don't, no one else will. I am a storm, a force to be reckoned with.
I may cause damage whereever I go, but as long as you wait for the rain to pass, there will always be a rainbow left in the end.
