College can be a stressful time. Pulling all-nighters to finish that essay that you know you should have started a while back or trying to cram for a test that you’re probably going to end up failing. As college students, we can go from being happy one minute to crying and crawling into a ball the next.

We have to find some sort of medium in order to get a handle on our lives. High school may have come easy for some of us, but college can certainly be a reality check and ultimately help us determine if we are really made out for this world.

Like many other high school students at the time, I was very eager to leave my hometown and travel to someplace new, and meet new people. When I took my first step on campus the beginning of my freshman year, I was excited to start a new journey in my life. I wanted to make someone of myself and pursue a career I have so passionately desired.

I quickly met a great group of people and I found myself relating to them in many ways. There’s a saying that goes, "The friends you make in college are friends you’ll have for life." My friends and I have been through all the ups and downs of college, but we have all stuck together and pulled through. I believe that even after college, we will all still remain friends and stay in contact.

Freshman year came and went way too fast. Before I knew it, I was beginning my sophomore year. I have come to believe that freshman year is like a crash course into the college lifestyle, but sophomore year is where the real test begins. During sophomore year, you will at times want to rip out your hair, and question if you are really destined for your major. Believe me, I have encountered my fair share of those moments. I have wanted to call it quits on many, many occasions, but even Orgo can’t stop me from pursuing my dream career.

I have found one of the hardest things about college, other than desperately trying to keep my GPA up, was finding out who I really am. Am I destined to be a forensic scientist? Am I making the right decisions? Am I straight or gay? Ever since high school, I have seriously questioned my sexuality. I have always been conflicting on the idea and I never really had an answer.

During the summer before my sophomore year, a guy named Brian started to strike up a Facebook conversation with me. I knew him through some mutual friends and I saw him around campus every now and then. Before I knew it, I was beginning my sophomore year and he started to talk to me more often. I developed a crush on him, but I didn’t have the guts to tell him. When he told me he had a crush on me, I finally thought it was time to tell him. I was so nervous to see where this could potentially go as I have never been in a relationship before.

After I told him I liked him, we started to get to know each other better. We had some really great late night conversations, and he would constantly tell me how cute I was and how great of a guy I was. His snapchats would be the highlight of my day and I had to force myself to not blush whenever I was talking to him.

There came a point where things started to get serious with us, or so I would think. We started to send each other some rather personal snapchats, and I felt so comfortable talking to him. Not too long afterwards, he told me that he was getting ahead of himself.

I was completely devastated. I felt as if the past few months that we had talked was all for nothing. I couldn’t help but think that I did something wrong or that I turned him off in some way. I just remember back to when we were first talking and he told me that sophomore year was full of drama and how relationships complicated everything. The irony was rich indeed, and I felt I made him relive that over again.

In the short span of time we were talking, I have felt some of the happiest and depressing moments in my life. Although things may not have gone the way I wanted, I guess some goods things came out of it. You can’t help your feelings, but sometimes you just have to put the past in the past, and move on.

A good man once told me, “I’ve learned that relationships are for after college because you need to focus on yourself and only yourself.”