Isn't second place just the worst? It's like you are not the overall winner, but you were so incredibly close to victory. And now, now you are the first loser.
I made a promise to myself this summer. That promise was to never let anyone treat me how I should not be treated and put me in second place. I refuse to sit idly by while someone I thought mattered, puts me last. I will never deserve that. I deserve to have the world, not someone who does not make me theirs.
I used to be the girl who would never want to let go. No matter what it took. If there were problems, I would always just let them fade, and never do anything about them. Just forget about them, because my relationship was more than that, right? That was the worst thing I could possibly ever do. I let guys who I thought were my world put me second in theirs. I became the fallback. I witnessed a guy tell another girl that she was his priority, when that should have been me.
It took so many tears and so much pain to realize I am not a woman to be trifled with. I refuse to let any man put me second. I know my self worth, and it is not to be a second thought. So many women in today's world will willingly let a man walk over her and treat her as an option in order to keep a relationship alive. I am living proof that this does not work. I think the reason I was so messed up after my relationship was because I tolerated so much. I let a man walk over me, lie to me, sometimes even to my face. And of course I knew it, but I believed that love was stronger than any problem we had. So I turned the other cheek and continued to love a man who chose me after everything else.
I think back now and realize how completely ignorant I was to the entire situation. I let a man decide my self worth, and that eventually became what I lived by. And when he left, I was left picking up the pieces of a girl who no longer knew who she was. All I tried to do was avoid confrontation of any kind, let him slip by with whatever he wanted to do. How is that fair to me? How is it that I let myself become a bystander in my own relationship?
But I am back.
And I am better than ever.
I listened to all of the heartbreak songs that Taylor Swift had to offer. I got myself together and realized that letting someone else choose me second was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I continuously thought that I was not good enough since someone else was chosen over me. And let me tell you, second place SUCKS. You are so close to being first, but being second means that you are the first loser.
So, to any woman reading this, I am rooting for you. Rooting for you to be first place in someones life. You deserve it. Do not let any man choose someone else over you, do not tolerate it. Do NOT sit idly by while he hurts you. My biggest regret is that I never confronted the situation. CONFRONT HIM. Be STRONG. Do not give him all of the power. You are too incredibly amazing to let an idiotic man control who you are.
From,
The Girl who will never be 2nd ever again.
