Every second Sunday in May, the people of the United States celebrate the hard work and dedication of their moms, and give thanks by buying them flowers, jewelry and various other kinds of gifts. Well, for my older sister Christy and I, Mother's Day is the hardest day of the year. We go around and we watch everyone give thanks to their mom and shower them with hugs and kisses, and every year we realize that we'll never be able to do that ever again. People say that time heals all, but as time continues to pass, the grieving has just subsided.
Five years ago, my mom was diagnosed with stage four colon cancer. Being only 14 at the time she was diagnosed, it was hard for me to understand that my mom's health was dwindling more and more as the days passed on. I wondered why there wasn't a cure, why no one could do anything to help her and most importantly, why us? Well, almost exactly a year later, my mom passed away. It was as if my whole world had stopped, like there was no other reason as to why the world should keep turning because the light of my life's world had stopped, just like that. As time goes on, I always think what things would be like if she was here. She would have seen me win different awards, see my show choir performances, see me in my theater days, seen me off to my first year of college and dealt with plenty of heartbreak; she would have been there for me every step of the way.
Mother's Day is a waste of a holiday, because in my eyes you should shower your mother with hugs, kisses and gifts every day. There shouldn't be a special day set aside for when you should show your mom affection. Not just myself, but plenty of kids would kill to be able to give their mom a gift any day of the week just once again. I look around and I see people say things like "I hate you, Mom" or, "My mom is so annoying," and that has to be the hardest thing to watch happen because my mom is gone, and I'll never be able to speak to her again. I would kill to trade places with those kids. Moms are special and you only get one.
If there was anything I could say to my beautiful angel this Mother's Day, it's just simply this: I miss you more and more every day. People say things like, "What is your mom doing?" "What does your mom think of that?" And I remember that you aren't here. The pain has subsided, but the thought of being without you still aches in my chest. People tell me I look more and more like you as time goes on, and it's a blessing to know that I have the looks of such an angel. I can't wait to grow up and hopefully have a family of my own and be able to tell them how amazing my mother was, and how she was just a beautiful ray of sunshine. I work hard every day just so I know that you're proud of me and everything that I've accomplished. I love you, and happy Mother's Day, Mommy.
