We all want someone to be there for us all the time. We hate the feeling of being alone. We want someone to help us make decisions, be there for us, and make us feel loved. It is natural for us to want a significant other to make us feel complete, but that is not the case. You need to love yourself and who you are as a person before any of that can take place. It's okay to be confused, unsure, lost, upset, indecisive, and frustrated. It is all part of growing up and finding ourselves. We need to be in control of what we want in life and pursuing our dreams first. That is what matters the most.
I once thought that I needed to have someone there for me at all times to make me feel safe and complete. I thought I was in love with someone I knew I would marry one day at that time. He was my best friend and the love of my life. There was just one problem; I had my own problems and issues inside me that were not fixed. I eventually started to realize after two years that I just was not happy with who I was and what I was doing with my life. I had someone there for me, yet I felt so alone at the same time. How could I love someone if I did not love myself at all? I felt broken, and there was nothing that my significant other could do to help me. The only one that could help me was myself. That is when I knew it was time for me to be on my own and figure out why I was feeling this way. I still feel the same way, but I am working on it. It is not something that will go away or be fixed over night. It takes time, patience, experience, meeting new people, and expanding my horizons.
I am young and stupid, but aren't we all? I have made mistakes and will most likely still be making them throughout my life because there will always be bumps in the road on your journey to become what you aspire to be. We must stay humble, be forgiving, and approach everything with an open mind. Nothing should be a mistake, but take it as a lesson. Stop thinking about everything so negatively and make it into something positive. You did something that you regret? You can't control the past so just do your best to not make the same mistake again. Everyone is entitled to anything that they feel is right, so never hold back on anything because it can potentially change your life, whether it is something big or small.
We are young, stupid, and confused all at the same time. Embrace it.
