Why I Had My Haircut

Why I Had My Haircut

Yes, it was more than just "cutting a few layers off"

I have always been known to have really long hair and do not get me wrong, I love having long, wavy hair. However, I do not want to be known as the "girl who always has long hair." My long hair was also getting hard to upkeep with - it took forever to brush, longer showers, knots for days, etc. I just do not have the patience right now in my life to keep up with my long hair like I have had to do in the past.

Now, it may seem strange but I also became extremely "attached" to my long hair because even though I have had my hair cut in the past, I would always end up growing out my hair. I also wanted a change in my life. This year has been a roller coaster for me - while it has had its ups, the downs overpower the ups. I thought that when I enrolled in college, that people would be nicer because we are older and should act like adults. Apparently, this message does not transcend well with others because I feel as though I sometimes interact with people who are still stuck in high school. I do not care for drama, nor do I like it when people talk badly about me behind my back OR to my face. But other college students CRAVE this because bestowing misery upon others is fulfilling and entertaining for some people. Let me just clarify that while I would love if everyone were friends with each other, it would be a perfect world. This world is not perfect nor will it ever be. With that being said, if people could act like decent human beings that would suffice.

As someone who is always trying to make others happy, I have started to realize that some people are too immature to understand that what they say can sometimes hurt ones feelings without them knowing. With that being said, this haircut was also a psychologically symbolic for me as a way to cope with trying to not care what other people say negatively to my face. At first, I thought I should cut my hair to determine if someone who was not fond of me would alter their opinion of me if I changed my appearance. I came to the conclusion that if I wanted to cut my hair, it should be because I wanted to fully accept myself for who I am, and also cut it to deal with negative people "in" my life.

I also wanted to lighten my hair because my life at college can be busy and hectic so this was a reminder for me to stay delighted and lively. So far, I have been enjoying the length and color of my hair and will hopefully continuing this new look for quite some time. As for the other reasons as to why I cut my hair, I'm just taking things one step at a time to remind myself to stop worrying about people who should not heavily matter in my life (i.e. they are not my family or close friend of mine, etc).

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20 Small Tattoos With Big Meanings

Tattoos with meaning you can't deny.

It's tough to find perfect tattoos with meaning.

You probably want something permanent on your body to mean something deeply, but how do you choose a tattoo that will still be significant in 5, 10, 15, or 50 years? Over time, tattoos have lost much of their stigma and many people consider them a form of art, but it's still possible to get a tattoo you regret.

So here are 20 tattoos you can't go wrong with. Each tattoo has its own unique meaning, but don't blame me if you still have to deal with questions that everyone with a tattoo is tired of hearing!

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1. A semi-colon indicates a pause in a sentence but does not end. Sometimes it seems like you may have stopped, but you choose to continue on.

2. "A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor."

3. Top symbol: unclosed delta symbol which represents open to change. Bottom symbol: strategy.

4. "There are nights when the wolves are silent and only the moon howls."

5. Viking symbol meaning "create your own reality."

6.Greek symbol of Inguz: where there's a will, there's a way.

7. Psalm 18:33 "He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he causes me to stand on the heights."

8. 'Ohm' tattoo that represents 4 different states of consciousness and a world of illusion: waking (jagrat), dreaming (swapna), deep sleep (sushupti), transcendental state (turiya) and world of illusion (maya)

9. Alchemy: symbolizes copper, means love, balance, feminine beauty and artistic creativity.

10. The Greek word “Meraki" means to do something with soul, passion, love and creativity or to put yourself in to whatever you do.

11. Malin (Skövde, Sweden) – you have to face setbacks to be able to go forward.

12. Symbol meaning "thief" from the Hobbit. It was the rune Gandalf etched into Bilbo's door so the dwarves could find his house.

13. “Lux in tenebris" means “light in darkness."

14. Anchor Tattoo: symbolizing strength & stability, something (or someone) who holds you in place, and provides you the strength to hold on no matter how rough things get.

15."Ad Maiora" is translated literally as “Towards greater things." It is a formula of greeting used to wish more success in life, career or love.

16. A glyphs means “explore." It was meant as a reminder for me to never stop exploring.

17. "Aut inveniam viam aut faciam," meaning roughly, "Either I shall find a way, or I will make one."

18. Lotus Flower. It grows in muddy water, and it is this environment that gives forth the flower's first and most literal meaning: rising and blooming above the murk to achieve enlightenment.

19. The zen (or ensō) circle to me represents enlightenment, the universe & the strength we all have inside of us.

20. Two meanings. The moon affirms life. It looks as if it is constantly changing. Can reminds us of the inconsistency of life. It is also symbolizes the continuous circular nature of time and even karma.

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The Journey To Loving My Hair Has Been A Long And Stressful Experience, But I'm Getting There

I hate my hair.


I hate my hair. Yeah, I said it. I hate it.

She's thick and wild and defies gravity. She breaks the rules of basic science, and she can't be tamed. It was only four years ago when I was prancing around my room listening to Kendrick Lamar's "To Pimp a Butterfly" when I decided to make the big chop. Four years ago my hair was straight. It was also heat damaged, broken, and brittle. I had worked so hard to tame my hair only to please my peers. In the end, it only left me miserable and damn near bald. I hated looking at it.

Now, four years later, when I look in the mirror, I still hate my hair. Don't get me wrong, the hair is beautiful and shiny. It's just too difficult to manage on a daily basis. It's grown out to a length that awkwardly frames my face. It's still chemically damaged, and a lot of it is permanently straight, which obviously stands out from the rest of my kinky coils.

And let me not forget how expensive it is to care for hair like mine. Products are expensive and limited. A good protective hairstyle will also cost you a check or two. My hair will forever be on my to-do list. Not a day goes by without me tackling the simple question: "What am I going to do with my hair?"

What if I feel like being as rebellious as my hair? What if I just said "eff it" and go to bed without figuring out my hair first? I'm doomed to suffer the next day. I wish it were as simple as throwing on a hat and walking out the door, but unfortunately, it isn't. My hair doesn't fit under a hat, and setting it to fit it in one will take me a good 30 minutes.

If I'm so upset with my hair all the time, why don't I just go back to straightening it? I ask myself this everytime I am faced with the task of tackling my hair. I wish the answer would be an easy yes or no answer. Chemically processing my hair is another hectic task all on its own. The nearly irreversible damage that it brings, the constant upkeep, and the scars. Yes, the scars. I would rather cry about healthy hair than unhealthy hair.

And I promise you, she's beautiful. My hair is soft and filled with texture that is unique to only me. Though she's slow to grow, she is still growing. The length I had four years ago is dramatically longer and more filling. My hair is my most complimented attribute. I haven't put a flat iron to my hair in years, and she is the healthiest she has ever been. It might take me another four years to truly love my hair, but I am excited with anticipation of this torturous love-hate relationship.

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