With Valentine's day coming up, some people are desperate for a date. Some are desperate to be loved and will fully put themselves out there so that they can be recognized by a person before February 14th. But we shouldn't be desperate for acceptance by other people - we should be desperate for the Lord himself. Being desperate for another person's heart is not what this article is about, so if that's what you're looking for then I suggest closing this page and saving your time.
I've had the same song stuck in my head for the past few weeks that has really made me question my own heart. Rend Collective's "Desert Soul" is one of my favorites, but when really listening to the words I can't help but think, "how desperate am I really for the Lord?"
First, let's define what it means to be desperate. If you Google it you will probably see words along the lines of 'hopeless', tried in despair', and 'having little hope'. But what does it really mean? And how does it really feel to be truly desperate for the Lord? For me, being desperate is feeling so lost and so hopeless that the only way to find hope is to find God.
This song really makes me consider how much I need the Lord. I'm in my first year at college, which means this is my first year of truly being independent. Being independent for the first time is so exciting but it can be so scary. When you're in a new place with new people, who do you go to when you're struggling? Or tempted by Satan himself?
I find myself going to my new friends that I've made, or my friends that I left when I went to school. I find myself calling my parents and asking for advice. But even after talking to everyone who impacts my life, I still do not feel like I've found peace - true peace where I can sit and know that I'm not going through my problems alone.
This is where I become desperate for a desperate heart. Here are some of the lyrics to "Desert Soul" that really make me question myself:
"I love you, Lord
But I want to love You more
I need You, God
But I want to need You more"
No matter how much I love the Lord or need Him it is never enough. To truly give myself to Him, I need to want Him more than anything else. I need to want a desperate heart for the Lord, because then I will know that He is all that I need.
Being "desperate" for something may not sound like the coolest thing to be. Everyone thinks that they need to have their lives together, but that's not the case because truth is, no one has their life together. But when you're truly desperate for the Lord and allow Him to guide your every step, you don't have to worry about having your life together.
“Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.” Jeremiah 33:3
