College is important, everyone tells you that. In today's world, it can be hard to get anywhere without a degree. These four years are my four years to have fun, find myself and create friendships and memories that will last a lifetime. Sure I have great friends and made great memories where I used to go, but it just was not for me. Don't get me wrong, my first semester was great, but midway through the second semester, I just was not feeling it anymore.
Once I finished my freshman year I had a choice to either go back to a school that I just didn't like where it didn't feel like home or find a new place to call my home. Now finding this new home did not happen over night, it required a lot of me, I felt like a high school senior again. I had my checklist of what I wanted and found the perfect school. Which I will now be attending in January!
I am excited about this fresh start. It is probably the last new fresh start. I will enter the school a stranger where no one will know my name or my story, and that is completely okay because one day people will know my name and my story and I will get to call those people my friends. I am excited to finally get the college experience I want to have with sports games and nights out in the city, and the city will be right outside my front door....literally. All the restaurants and shops and clubs and nightlife. The festivals and events going on every night.... that I exactly what I want.
The thing I am trying to say is that it is okay to take breaks and have start overs. I had to take a semester off from school before I could start over and now I know I am going to be much happier where I am going. I love the whole college thing, I just didn't like where I was going before, and it would have been a shame for me not to give it a shot somewhere else.
My whole life I was unsure of where I wanted to be or what I wanted to do and who I wanted to be and each day I am getting closer and closer to figuring all of that out. Nothing happens overnight, it just all takes time and that is one thing that I need to understand. Even when your world is crashing down around you, give it time and everything will fall into place. Three months ago I was miserable and depressed, but now everything I wanted is falling into place and I am not so miserable and depressed anymore.
New beginnings...A fresh start....A fresh me...
