I am turning 23 this Saturday, and most people will have one main query. "When are you going to get married?" "You are of marriageable age!" This is what I want to say.
It is true that I have never been in a relationship all my life. It is also true that I have never known how to be in a relationship with a guy, so in a way, my parents have all the rights to worry. And with the current situation that is happening in my family, they will be more worried, as they don't want me to be alone. I totally understand.
I am not the kind of girl who dates casually. I am not the kind of girl who will go after a guy just to have a boyfriend. I am also not the kind of girl who will change her personality and looks just for a guy. Because when I am in a relationship, I expect it to be serious. I want true love and not random flings. I want to always be the "sensitive, innocent, sensible with a big heart" girl, and I expect a guy to accept that, and it is not easy.
On top of that, I have always been the girl who has focused on her studies and career. Music has always been a part of my life, and that's what I have been doing and that's what I will do. I want to make my dreams come true. I have always given time to myself, and I have always felt that this is something I want to do on my own. I want to be someone before going for a serious commitment. To become a music therapist, I have to focus on myself. I don't want to lose an opportunity by getting married too soon, and to be honest, I am just not ready.
I also want my future-husband and future-in-laws to understand and accept my special needs. I also want them to understand my love and passion for music. I have a worry that if I get married early, I may not have an opportunity to do all the things I desire. I won't be happy if people don't accept me. Marriage is a lot of hard work. With the amount of hard work I am going to be doing for 2 years, it will add more stress and I am not ready for that yet.
I have never shared my life with someone. I have always been independent, made my own rules and focused on my studies and career. To go for a serious commitment, I need to become more willing and I am not in that level yet. It will take time, and that time is not now.
It is true that I am quite nervous thinking about all this, but the main truth is, I am only 23, and I have a lot to see and do in my life. I am not ready for a marriage yet. But then again, I am not saying I will never get married.
I believe in true love and destiny. I believe that one day, I will get a wonderful guy in my life, who will accept me for who I am. A guy who will always be there for me, no matter what. A guy who will support me. I also believe that I will be a wonderful mother to my kids. I do want to get married, and I will get married, not now, but when the right time comes. Life is unpredictable and we don't know what will happen next. Same way, I have left it to destiny, and if this is what destiny wants, I will do it.
But right now, all I want is support to complete my course and to have a wonderful career. Please help me fulfill my dreams. I hope you understand!
Student LifeJul 24, 2016
Why I Am Not Ready For Marriage Yet
I am 23, and I still have a lot to do...
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