We all know those Christians who love to broadcast others' faults but refuse to look in the mirror at their own faults, or maybe you are one of those people, like I was.

I have recently learned how to be completely honest with myself, and due to that, I'm going to be completely honest with you.

I was that good girl in high school who never got into trouble. Like ever. I've never drank, I've never slept around, I've never done drugs, nothing. Many would say I have a spotless record. I'm probably the most boring college kid you'll ever find. I don't party and I don't see the need to because all I've ever seen it result in is trouble. I may have never done the typical teenage things, but I have done some pretty awful things.

I've sat on my spiritual high horse and passed judgement against others who have done the typical teenage/college stuff. I've said mean things about people, and thought to myself "thank God I didn't turn out like they did". I have broke people down instead of lifting them up like Christ calls us to. I had heart issues, my heart was full of bitterness, pride, greed, anger, selfishness, and so many other things.

I recently went to a church camp where I learned that my testimony of being the good girl was parallel with the prodigal son's brother. His brother didn't run off, squander his inheritance, lose everything, and humbly come back to his father. His brother did as he was told, stayed with his father, and remained the "good son". What you don't see is the bitterness the brother had in his heart towards his father for so easily accepting the prodigal son back into the family. What you don't see is the selfishness of the brother to not want his brother to have the best his father had to offer. Instead of him celebrating his brothers return, he pouted and threw himself a pity party. Just like I, and you I'm sure, have done before.

I've asked God why so-and-so received a scholarship I thought they didn't deserve when I have busted my tail all throughout my academic years only to get a rejection letter. I've questioned why so-and-so met the person they're supposed to spend forever with at such a young age, but yet I've been praying for my future spouse since I was 7 years old. I've been mad at God because I didn't get something I thought I deserved but someone who I thought definitely didn't deserve it, received it.

I've been envious, I've been mad at my Father, I've questioned my Father's decisions, and I've been jealous of what others have just as the brother of the prodigal son. But don't worry, I'm a good girl because I've never slept around or drank. (hint my sarcasm)

Everyone knows that all sin is equal in the eyes of Christ. So, me being mad at God for not giving me what I want is equally as wrong as anything else anyone does. I finally climbed down from my spiritual high horse I was so proudly perched on, did a heart check, and realized that I'm not so good as I thought. Heart checks are super important because they always remind you why it's important to stay humble. Pride comes before the fall, thankfully I didn't face plant the concrete getting off my high horse, but it did hurt my ego a little. Which is what it should do.

If you're on a spiritual high horse like I used to be, I urge you to step down, look at yourself. Examine your heart instead of being worried about others and what they do and have. Focus on yourself and your relationship with the Lord and I promise you, you'll be so glad you got off that horse. You'll learn to love people more, you'll learn to enjoy the simple joys of life, you'll learn to not be so uptight about things and how to be honest with yourself and Christ. That's the most important thing.

How high is your spiritual high horse?