Time is a strange thing.
Sometimes it seems to drag on forever (such as when you’re sitting in class just waiting for the agony- I mean, the educational learning experience to end). And yet other times it seems to fly so fast you don’t even know what happened. I mean, one minute you’re walking into the wrong classroom on the first day of freshman year of high school, then blink and you’re in your sophomore year of college expected to have a general plan for my life. Wait, what?
If you know me at all, you know I’m a pretty laid back, “we’ll cross that bridge when we get there” kind of person. This isn’t much of a problem when it comes to little things, but when you have to make important life decisions and you’re getting shoved onto that theoretical bridge whether you like it or not, it can be… stressful. Suddenly, the choices I was making could affect the rest of my life FOREVER. The weight of responsibility was crushing me, and I almost didn’t make it.
Okay, I’m being melodramatic, but that’s what it’s like when the future creeps up on you and you feel completely unprepared. It’s easy to feel like you’re the only one who doesn’t know what they’re doing, and it’s not a fun feeling. As a Christian, you’ll always hear, “Oh, God a plan, just trust him.” Easier said than done.
For a long time I thought I was trusting God with my future, sitting around waiting for Him to reveal this master plan, preferably with complete instructions on how to move forward.
Wouldn’t that be grand.
What I didn’t realize was that sitting around, avoiding any and all decisions until the whole plan slapped me in the face wasn’t really “trusting God” at all. It was just me hiding from any situation that might be a leap of faith, that would have an unsure end. I was avoiding any circumstances that might require actually trusting God with the results, not accepting anything less than the big pictureI still couldn't even try to tell you where I'll be in three years, because I have no idea, and I still struggle with the uncertainty of my future, but I am slowly learning that whatever decisions I do make, I'm going to fully surrender to God and let Him be the author of my story. I don't need to see the big picture of how my life will turn out if I just trust Him with each and every day. He does, in fact, have a plan, and I'm pumped to see where it takes me, little bits at a time.
"Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:" Philippians 1:6
