I'm not usually one to complain but this past couple of months have been a little more than I can bear. Through it all, I can say that I have held it together and been a trooper. I have no choice but to look at my little family and Thank God that we are all together.
Even though life hasn't been going the way that we've wanted my family has come closer together. We've been doing more a family because we're trying to stay focused and positive. "When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade," right?
It may sound weird but through it all, we have become closer as a family. My boyfriend and I had become a strong united couple even when we got the news that he didn't get the job that we thought for sure was his. He went to two separate interviews and also met the owner of the company. Supposedly, everyone there liked him, but they decided to "go in a different direction."
Sorry for the tangent, it just really ticked the both of us off.
We've managed to keep the breakdowns to a minimum and keep things happy and light around the kiddo for his sake. At least once a month we go to the movies as a family to enjoy a kid-friendly flick or take him for ice cream. Our little family might be struggling, but we're going to keep holding on and believing that everything will work out in the end.
It's hard to keep yourself motivated when every door that opens gets slammed hard in your face. You have to hold on to the fact that even though life is not going as planned at the moment the most important thing that matters is the people you have around you.
The past few weeks my boyfriend and I haven't had the time to relax and check in with each other to see how the other party is holding up during this roller coaster ride but we've managed to keep our heads and carry on. Both of us are on the hunt for a job, and hopefully, something pans out soon.
It's a scary thought when you don't know what's going to happen when there is a mountain of debt and mortgage on a house to pay, plus all the regular bills. Sleep has become a stranger to me because of all the worrying I've been doing. Why rest when there are jobs to be applied to? That's my logic, even though it's wrong. Worrying will not solve the problem but I'm a mother, it's what I do best.
If you find yourself in a similar situation, remember that family is the most important thing in life and that will give you the strength to pull through whatever problem you are facing. I have to keep reminding myself that things will get better.