"Whats right, what's wrong?"
We all go through this question,
And if you haven't then where the heck did you get the "How To" book on life and can I have a copy please.
But seriously, I think I may have asked myself this question since I was 13 years old walking into my freshman year of high school and if you say you haven't done the same then stop lying to yourself and just join the group already.
Of course those four years flew by with a 6 foot list of all the mistakes that I have made but like every advice and wellness article says, "you learn from your mistakes".
Yea that's some bull crap.
I have probably made the same mistake at least ten or so times, most likely twice as much.
The funny thing is, and probably the hardest thing, is that I cannot figure out why I do what I do no matter how hard I try to put my finger on it.
Like why do I always hit the snooze button when I know I am always late to everything?
Why do I put my studying off until the night before when I know I can't learn 200 biology terms in 24 hours?
Why do I always put my guard up with someone who is trying their absolute best to show me how much they love me?
Like is there something seriously wrong with me or is this what life is really like for the first 25 years?
I sure as heck have not figured it out but I would much rather not have to go through a mid 20's life crisis thank you very much.
What I want to know is does everyone sit here and question themselves like I do? Or am I completely alone on this whole thing?
It's been a long and hard road to get to where I am today, a road full of too many tears, yelling, hugging, smiles and so much laughter.
I cannot begin to explain how much I have questioned myself, and how others have questioned me as well, but that's just the way it goes. Nothing is easy.Life is not easy. College is not easy. Family is not always easy. Love and friendships never come easy.
But you know what the cool thing about all of the questions and uncertainty? You are the one who can put those worries aside and take that leap of faith.
What I have learned, and are still learning, is that this "How To" book of life is not just one chapter.
Every single experience, every risk that you decide to take, is a brand new chapter of a never-ending story.
We never really know what is the right choice and what is the wrong choice, but the best part about that question are the memories we make and the adventures that we take along the way.
So the moral of the rant is this; don't ever stop questioning yourself.
The day that you stop questioning is the day that you finish writing the last chapter of your book, and no matter how many questions there are, no one wants to see your story end.
