I'm sure he's forgotten by now.

What we had. Before.

Before the stars grew dim

Before the landslide brought us down

Before the sun stopped shining

Before the fire incinerated us

Before the wind started howling

Before the wickedness devoured

And the monsters came

And the arrow struck

And the knives pierced

And the glass shattered

Before I forgot my name

Before the coma set in

Before the crash

And the ache

And the blister

And the hurt

Before promises were broken

Before decisions were made.

And now he's here still

In my head or my heart

I've lost the difference

But he's here

His talons still choke me as I cry

I can still feel his touch in my soul

His mind still rules my quietness

And I can't help but think about his eyes

Always seeing through my denial.

What I wouldn't give...

Just to know that he remembers

Just to know I am not lost

Just to know it wasn't a game

Or a fantasy

Or an accident

Just to know

If he still thinks about...before.

Anything. I think I'd give anything.