Dear Someone I Used To Know,
It's been months since we've last spoken. I miss you. I miss hysterically laughing with you until we couldn't feel our stomachs. I miss looking at you with tears rolling down your face out of laughter and happiness. I miss walking into your home like it was a routine. I miss sending you hideous Snapchats for you to save in your phone gallery to keep for future embarrassment. I miss rolling out of bed to go on a run with you, and eating ice cream directly afterwards.
Most importantly, I miss the simple things. I miss your smile. I miss how red your cheeks would get when you laughed. Not knowing how you are genuinely has torn me apart.
I'm sad that our friendship had to end. You're the last person I thought I would lose. Having no answers is difficult. People ask me what happened between us that caused such a rift.
I have nothing to say to them. I have no answer, no response. I genuinely don't know what made you forget about me so easily. Maybe I'll never know.
But, I want you to know that I never took our friendship for granted. I thought of you as not only a best friend, but also as a sister.
You were the one I would go to when complaining about my grades or a boy. You were the one I would send 100 texts to about which pair of shorts I should buy. You were the one who ate an entire pint of ice cream with me while watching "The Bachelor." You were the one who let me sleep over your house at 2 a.m. after being traumatized from hitting a deer along the road.
When sophomore year of college began, everything seemed to change. A new girl was added to the mix. You started spending all your time with her and leaving me out. I couldn't comprehend why I was being left out of everything, but most importantly, I could envision our friendship deteriorating in front of my very eyes. It worried and angered me that I couldn't seem to fix it.
When I realized that I couldn't do anything to try and keep our friendship intact, I had to learn to let go. This process was extremely difficult for me. I have lost best friends in the past, but this loss was one of the hardest life experiences I had to overcome. I had to adjust to an empty space in my phone contacts where your name used to be. I had to learn and actually understand that everything truly happens for a reason.
I'm scared that you don't think about me and have completely erased me from your memory. I'm scared that you have replaced me. Even though we've drifted apart, our memories will never be forgotten.
Nothing really happened between us except growing into two different people. How do I let someone go that I could never envision my life without? Will we ever cross paths again?
I don't know what will happen in the future, but I do know one thing: I will forever consider you to be one of my best friends. Even though we are no longer friends, you will always hold a special place in my heart.
Although we no longer communicate, I'm thankful that you showed me what a true friend looked like. Thank you for also showing me what a friend does not look like. I now know what I want in a best friend. Thank you for helping me get over this heartbreak.
We cannot control what happens to us. We cannot control the actions of others. Accept the things we cannot fix.
All we can do is move on and continue to be the best people we can be. I wish you all the best.
Sincerely,
Your Ex-Best Friend
