True passion isn't just pleasant as it includes your afflictions, your insecurities, and your flaws. Passion doesn't exclude the nights filled with hating yourself, ignoring your true worth--then you were sure you weren't good enough. It took that mental torture to feed your passion to be better. Similarly, Love isn't pleasant but involves the challeges to exist. It was when I was cradling someone covered in their own vomit did I realize a true component of love. Love is loving someone when they are down or when they can't care from themselves.
A detestable love is founded on ignorance. I consider all the loved ones out there who don't get to witness their partner's true character--one capable of judging, ridiculing--truly dbasing someone else. Love isn't oblivion. I hurt for the oblivous and the partners who aren't aware of their assaults. Love is contradicting--fighting for someone whne they don't want to fight for themselves, but love is also letting go. Consider your character and your partner's reaction seeing how you behave around others. You can't hide your corroded character forever. Could he still love you based on the fabrication that is your nature? Love is being the best you can be for yourself which gives someone grounds to love.
You can't know the world if you don't know yourself. If you pick who you help and cater to isn't altruism. What is worthy of your soul? Holding on to anger say something about your character you try so hard to make divine. You judge people, trying to insert yourself above someone; you detest someone because they don't carry themselves in your image, holding your views. You. Are. An. Assailant. To peer into the world, ayou have to let the world peer into you. What kind of person are you displaying? Your perception of the world and others differs from reality. If the world is out to stop you and you can do no wrong, make no mistakes, possess no flaws. Why aren't god then? Running from the truth and your problems will not set you free but will push you farther into the cage. To seek solace in others but not to resolve your problem is selfish as it deprives your "loved one's" time if you aren't gonna resolve anyting. The saddest human being in one who isn't able to uphold his potential to handle life and its obstacles. You should always possess doubt because doubt induces learning. Examine you character. Loving isn't someone being able to put up with your toxic character. Love isn't being able to endure someone's poison. Love is making yourself able to love and be loved. You are the matchless gift to someone else that could only be called love.
I aim for the prime version of myself because that is the purpose of my existence. That image reflecting my entirety is what I give other people. My impact is what I give the world. Love is a continuous cycle of giving and recieving the best possible versions of ourselves. But then again what do I know about love??
