What Journaling Has Taught Me

What Journaling Has Taught Me

The reoccurrences in my journals and what they mean to me.
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A lot of people may think that journaling isn’t worth the time and won’t be beneficial to them. I admit, I’ve gotten out of the habit too, but it’s something that I’m trying to push myself back into doing. Going all through middle school and high school, I kept a diary or journal, often writing about things that happened.

My journal was my place to vent and express how I felt. No one else would ever read them and I could get how I felt on the paper. Honestly, it took me a while to be able to start writing honestly. I always felt like someone would see what I was writing and judge me or it, but I realize that my journals were for me. I needed to let myself feel, and my journal was there for that relief.

I’ve been going through some of my older journals and found a few important common themes in them:

No matter what was going on, there were always friends that I could count on.
Family was something that was always important to me.
I often copied conversations that either hurt or helped me the most. The breakups, the apologies—those were the ones that seemed the most important to remember.
I documented the ups and downs I had throughout middle and high school.
The first relationship, the first kiss and the first break up were moments I wrote about that then kept reappearing in later journal.
The same people proved to reappear in multiple journals—friends, family, the ex.
I’m just as scared of losing people now as before.
I’ve always tried to push myself to do the best in school which caused stress.
There were always those TV shows like "Glee" that I would write about to relate too.
Each journal had what I was too afraid to say at the time.








Writing has always been something that I’ve found important to do. I like being able to look back at journals and remember the party in seventh grade where I had goldfish and cupcakes being blindly thrown in my direction, or the gym classes where volleyballs were on purposely hit at my head. I like remembering being at the beach with my family and friends and knowing that those trips still mean everything to me. I like seeing how far my ex and I have come and how I was so scared of losing him and, while I hate to admit it, still am. It’s nice to be able to look back on the events that changed me and pushed me towards becoming who I am now.

I’ve grown so much, thanks to those moments. The ones that hurt and the ones that made me laugh and smile. Each and every moment goes into making me who I am and it’s something that I’ll always want to be able to look back upon. I can compare how I am now to who I was back then and future me will be able to see how my time in college has changed me.

To me, journaling is one of the greatest ways to measure who I am and who I was. It’s something that I hope to always do whether I’m journaling every day or once a month. No amount of writing is too little or too much to me.

So thank you, Mom, Dad, Marcus, Monika, Katherine, Elizabeth, Alex, my other middle school friends, my Towson friends, and my whole family, for always giving me something to remember and write about.

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Side A makes you want to be single, Side B make you want to be boo'd up.

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1. "Don't tell me how knew it would be like this all along" — Emotionless

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2. "My mentions are jokes, but they never give me the facts" — Talk Up

This one's for my haters.

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For when you're feeling blessed.

4. "I promise if I'm not dead then I'm dedicated" — March 14

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6. "Pinky ring 'til I get a wedding ring" — Nonstop

7. "I gotta breathe in real deep when I catch an attitude" — 8 Out of 10

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9. "California girls sweeter than pieces of candy" — Sandra's Rose

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10. "I think you're changing your mind, starting to see it in your eyes" — Summer Games

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17. "Blue faces, I got blue diamonds, blue tint, yeah" — Blue Tint


18. "I stay busy workin' on me" — Elevate

19. "Ten of us, we movin' as one" — Talk Up

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21. "She had an attitude in the summer but now she nice again" — Blue Tint

22. "I know you special girl 'cause I know too many" — In My Feelings


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31. "I stopped askin' myself and I started feelin' myself" — Survival

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35. "It don't matter to me what you say" — Don't Matter to Me


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37. "Say you'll never ever leave from beside me" — In My Feelings

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Sandra Oh was nominated for best lead actress in a drama series for "Killing Eve"; the first woman of Asian descent to ever be nominated for this category! Although, this isn't her first time being nominated. She was previously nominated five times for supporting actress for "Grey's Anatomy"––she never won.

I am a huge "Grey's Anatomy" fan. So you're telling me, after Sandra Oh's character, Christina Yang, had suffered an ectopic pregnancy which almost killed her, being left at the altar by Burke, suffered post-traumatic stress disorder after having a gun held to her head in the midst of trying to save Derek, gets cheated on by Hunt, goes through a divorce, survives a plane crash but watched her friends and colleagues die, and not to mention she deserved to win that Harper Avery award but didn't; you're telling me after all these extraordinary performances she didn't win at all? Not one of the five times? Unbelievable.

Although it won't be for "Grey's Anatomy" this time, it's about time Sandra Oh gets the recognition she deserves. Sandra Oh departed from Grey's Anatomy after season ten and has since grabbed viewers' attention for her role in "Killing Eve," the show that she is being nominated for. This show centers around Sandra Oh's character, Eve, a desk-bound M15 officer who finds herself in the midst of a cat and mouse game with an assassin. If you need a new show to watch, this is an intriguing one to start.

To think, Sandra Oh is the FIRST actress of Asian descent to be nominated for this category. It's 2018, and I can't emphasize enough how much representation matters. Growing up as an Asian-American, I found it hard to resonate with characters of Asian descent who fit the stereotypical identity that everyone makes assumptions about. That wasn't who I was, nor did I want to be. Hollywood has created a narrative around Asians and Asian-Americans to fit a typecast for films and television shows but I for one believe Sandra Oh has defied that logic. She's brilliant and has proven viewers everywhere the hardworking, versatile actress she can be. From the principal in "Princess Diaries" to a dedicated cardiothoracic surgeon on "Grey's Anatomy" to an M15 officer trying to find an assassin, the limit does not exist.

The lack of Asian descents taking home the famous statue has only been numbered down to two and let's be honest here, there needs to be a change. As much as the internet pushed for Leonardo DiCaprio to finally win that Oscar he deserved, we need to push for Sandra Oh to break the internet and give her the Emmy she deserves.

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