I’m a dreamer. I’m the type of day dreamer who is so explicit in the smallest of details that I have trouble remembering if it was real or not. Within those many dreams, I’ve planned things for my future or planned out how I would get there. Except many of those dreams will stay as just that, because my plan is in no way the plan that was laid out for me.
We live our lives in a balance of fate and free will.
We have the free will to choose and to make decisions for ourselves that may seem to control our future, but we also have the fate that we are destined to fulfill. MY plan is my free will, but the plan that was written for me long before I was born, that is my fate. And slowly I’ve learned that my fate is surprising, challenging, uncomfortable, and so much better then what I could have dreamed up.
God wrote in my plan countless of moments to push me beyond my comfortability ceiling. They are moments where I can recall my free will decision and wish I chose the opposite. They’ve made me feel small, weak, incomparable… And they’ve made me grow, become stronger and wiser, and grateful. I can feel as though I chose that path for myself, and that I did what it took to get there, but ultimately I was destined to reach that mile marker, because it was in the plan I could never write.
If I lived the life I planned for, I would have never gone a day feeling anything but comfortable, and I would be half of who I am today.
By accepting the plan that I do not know, the plan that unfolds new every single day, I can also accept that everyday I become a better ME. I’m living the life that is best for me, a life that I could have never chosen or decided on. I’ve somehow found peace in knowing my worst days are both behind me, and possibly yet to come. If they have been planned for by the One who knows truly what is best for my life, I can face those worst days anything but alone. I’ve learned patience, in that my fate may not work on the same time frame as I do. And I’ve gained a sense of realization for the moments in my life that I KNOW are due to my fate, and not my plan.
Every single one of us has a plan, but there is also a plan that is waiting for us.
It might be terrifying at times in our eyes, but it was written by the One who loves us more than anything that we could comprehend. By accepting, trusting, and believing in the unknown plan, and living everyday willing to be pushed, willing to learn, and willing to take chances, you will find that the unknown plan is better than yours.
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." ~ Jeremiah 29:11
