Brace yourselves, graduation is coming. In particularly, in a month I will be donning the eponymous cap and gown, and graduate college. So-called "real life" will start, and I have no idea what it will bring for me. At this point I do not have a post-grad job lined up, and the only things that I know are certain are that: 1. I will be traveling to Ireland a few weeks after graduation. And: 2. I will be moving back in with my parents. Four years ago if you had told my 18-year-old self that I was graduating without a job,and that I was moving back in with my parents, I'd probably roll my eyes, and scream "NOOOO!!!!" I would automatically label myself as a loser, and a failure and subject myself to ghastly images of myself as a 50-year-old saying, "Would you like fries with that?" Let's pause for a second. I am now 22 years old. I have a bank account that makes the Greek economy look like a thriving system of funds, and I have no life direction. And I am slowly coming to terms with it.
For as long I can remember, I have always been someone who strives for the best. I remember the grand plans I made for myself as an eight-year-old: go to college somewhere cool, move to London, New York, or Paris, and be a successful writer like my lady heroine Jo March from "Little Women." Not too shabby for eight, considering my life plan before that was to become a nun... I'm not really made of the religious stuff. Now at 22, I couldn't tell you what my life plan is, and I'm kind of scared. I understand that having your life together at 22 is not to be expected, but it's weird! For the first time in my life I have no idea where I'll be in a year. For the past 16 years my answer would always be "School." Now, it's "I don't know."
Part of me likes the uncertainty. I like that I have plenty of options. However, the uncertainty also scares me. Every day I log onto Facebook and I see people I went to high school posting statuses about the jobs and opportunities they're receiving, it's stressful.
Where will life take me? I don't know. I could travel, work, go back to school, the possibilities are endless. While I am very scared of the future, I am excited to see what it will bring.
