There are so many things in this world that people are worried about every single day, that at the end of the busy day, don't really matter. Does it really matter if your picture reached the 100 or 200 like mark, or does it matter that when you posted it, it made you happy? Does it matter if that boy in your Basic Bio class saw that you changed your hair, or does it matter that you did something new to your hair for the fact that you were looking for a new change in your life?
We go through our days constantly thinking about the world around us and what it thinks about us. We are constantly on our phones checking all of our social media when the people who love us the most are sitting a foot and a half away from our face. We hide behind screens and technologies for the fact that we don't want to face the real world. With all of the craziness going on in the world right now, all I want is to just be happy.
The world around us asks 18-year-olds to know what they want to do for the rest of their lives and start working towards that just months after walking across the stage, some not even legal adults. Why do we need to know what we are going to do so soon? Why are we being asked to make such big decisions so young? Why can't I just want to be happy?
When people ask me what I really want in life, I tell them that all want is to be happy. This is not a way out of the question. This answer is something that I truly have thought about and honestly really want with my life. There is nothing wrong with just wanting to be happy for the rest of my life.
When I say I want to be happy, I mean so much more. I don't want to sit back and worry about what people thought of my outfit that day. I don't want to sit back and think about how much I hate my job or if my supposedly best friend is going off and stabbing me in the back. I want to be happy. I want to know that I have done everything I could have to make my life better. I want to know that what I am doing is making me happy.
One of the biggest things that's I have learned in this past month is that to be happy, you have to be willing to let things go. There are going to be days when nothing goes right, days where it seems as if the whole world has turned against you. These are the days that you have to take to grow. Find yourself and know that it is going to be OK. Life will go on and your day will get better. That's life.
Right now in life, I might not have everything together. I might be working all day long and then going out all night, but who cares? I might be wasting money that I should probably be saving. But at the end of the day, I am happy. I am loving my life and that's all I want right now, and that's all I want with my future. I refuse to look back at my life and realize that I did not live it to the fullest. I refuse to look to the future and be scared of what is coming. I am living my life to the fullest with the best in mind for what is best for me.
I am living my life because I just want to be happy.
