Wanderlust: "a strong desire to travel"
This isn’t a joke, people. “Basic white girls” everywhere are getting this inked on their body, so there must be some reality to it! I don’t have the tattoo, but I can vouch that it’s real, and hitting us in our 20’s the hardest. Whether it be something huge like the city we reside into the job position we currently hold, our wandering soul is searching for the next place to continue our story.
Let me be the first to say, job jumping in your 20’s is nothing to be ashamed of. I was picking my older brother up from the airport (visiting from out of state), and we were making small talk - my new job, my new car, the paychecks at my new job, etc. I told him some of the downsides of my new job and that I, the college dropout that I am, was thinking of returning to school to finish up my degree in radiology. It was then he told me, “You need to make a decision, Moni. Either work or school, but stop bouncing around the ideas and make a final decision. You make good money, and I don’t know anyone that loves their job.”
I partially agreed with him while the other part of me wondered, why? Why am I not allowed to try time and time again to find something that I love? Why, at 21 years old mind you, do I have to make such an ultimate and final decision and not be happy? Maybe it’s the society we live in now that instills us with this type of optimism, or maybe it’s our wandering soul. I can’t tell you what I want or what I want to do with my life, but I do know that every day I am getting a little closer to finding it.
My high school guidance counselor once told my small class of 80 in a meeting before college visits began, that he wanted to help us get in the right direction of finding a job where we go to bed Sunday looking forward to Monday! Even at that time, it hit me, and I thought (then and now), “Yes! This is what I want. I want to love my job so much I actually love Monday's and am glad to be back at work.”
Crazy dream, right? Maybe not. The reason I never have a second to spare is because I’m busy working to find what it is that I love. I work an 8 to 5 job in sales Monday through Friday, work at a golf course on Saturday's, and go to school Monday through Thursday right after work til 10 PM. When I’m not working, I am doing homework, blogging, and getting my foot in the door with new potential jobs.
Please don’t feel sorry for me; be excited! Through all of this, I am discovering what I love, and what isn’t necessarily for me.
So wander, dear soul; find what you love and live a life of happiness.
