Have you ever wondered what it's like to go through hell and come out the other side? I have been bullied to the point of wanting to commit suicide. There have been rumors spend about me. But in October I’ve had something happen to me that changed a lot about me and my mindset.

It’s something hard to talk about considering I have only told a few that are extremely close to me. It’s something I would never wish on anyone but it happens all the time. Here’s a little bit about what happened to me:

So I went out on a date with this guy. He was all sweet at first paid for the food, talked for a little while and what not. We went back to his house to watch a movie, so we watched the movie made out a little but next thing you know he’s asking to do more and of course I was saying no, I don’t want to.

I went home that night and went to bed because I had school the next day. The next day I go to school and he’s texting me the whole day asking to see me that night and I wasn’t sure, but then I told him to come pick me up after school which, in fact, he did.

We drove around for a little while. Then he finds an abandoned parking lot and asked me again to do something and I said no, which I would have thought he would understand, but he didn’t understand at all. He went for it anyways and I was scared and didn’t know what to do.

So that’s what happened to me back in October.

After that all happened to me, I didn’t tell a soul because I couldn’t process what had happened to me and when I did I didn’t know who I could talk to about it. So I just kept it to myself.

The moment I knew I had to tell someone was when everything in my mind was turning itself to the point of no return--thoughts of suicide and thinking that it was my fault. Also, that I could have done more to stop him but how I was frozen with fear.

There comes a time when you need your friends by your side and this is when I needed mine. You're going to ask yourself, why me? What did I do to deserve this?

Well, you've got to know that it wasn’t your fault. Don’t think of yourself as a victim of a crime that changes you, think of yourself as a survivor because that's exactly what we are. We came out stronger and a little more messed up and our trust definitely needs work.

But the reality is that we are not victims, we are survivors of a crime.