When I think of a letter, I think of it being private and kept sane. However, sometimes a private letter just isn’t enough to express the thoughts that run through your mind or to help others understand their feelings. So, here’s an open letter to all of those who have broken a piece of my heart. Whether it was a large piece, a small piece, or a minuscule piece, you still have impacted me in some way and have taken a little part of me with you, whether you want to believe it or not.
Here’s to the one who called me fat,
To the one who said that I had a "butter face,"
To the one who thought that it was OK to dump me for my friend,
To the one who told me that my ankles couldn’t hold my weight,
To the one who said to me that I couldn’t follow my dreams,
You taught me that words can find a way to define who I am.
Here’s to the one who broke up with me over the phone,
I ate a tub of ice cream for you.
Here's to the one who only dated me only in private,
You made me believe that I wasn’t enough for your friends.
Here’s to the one who broke my heart continuously and still kept me as a best friend,
You taught me a lot about what it meant to be used.
Here’s to the one who wasn’t ready when I was,
To the one who “just didn’t want a relationship,” but still wanted me,
To the one who didn’t have time for me, but somehow found time for other people,
To the one who said their feelings were strong, but clearly not strong enough to commit,
To the one who couldn’t choose between me and another girl, I’m glad that you picked her.
Here’s to the one who I wasn’t good enough for,
And here’s to the one whose heart I broke.
I’m sorry.
Here’s to the ones who have been in the past, the ones in my present, as well as to the ones in my near future. If you’re reading this, it may sound like a bitter letter to all of those who put a little hurt in my heart, but it’s just the opposite of that. Here’s a letter to all those who have taken a piece of my heart, without knowing, and silently kept it with them. I am thankful for the times when you broke my heart.
I’m thankful for the nights and thoughts that I have spent on discerning whether or not you made the right decision. I’m thankful for the hurts that you have brought me because, in all honesty, it has made me just a little more filled with love, patience, and grace.
It has made me love myself just a little more. It has made me laugh because you were just a small bit of my life story. It has brought me joy because, in the midst of being sad, heartbroken, and lost, I have discovered that I’m going places.
I’m going places despite what you’ve done and I’m going places without you, most likely. I’m filled with love because if you hadn’t taken a piece of my heart back when you did, somewhere along the line, I wouldn’t have discovered that I am just an incredible person, no matter what you thought. I am worth the world. So, here’s to the ones who’ve had their hearts broken, but realize that it’s just all just a part of the process, a process that we must trust to make it out in the end.
So, here's my open letter to say thank you.
