Because of you, we never had a relationship. You called maybe twice or three times a year, and I never saw you. I know you’d blame it on how far you live from Nick and I but distance shouldn’t matter. If we truly mattered too you, you would have made the effort to come see us or send us out to see you. You pop up whenever you want too and that’s not okay. I wish I could tell you how I feel but I am so angry with you that I’d just cry.
You were my first heartbreak. Seeing the only man in my life leave as a little girl, destroyed me. Was it my fault? Was I not good enough? Was it my fault that you and mom split up? These were the questions I would ask myself after you watched us leave on an airplane. Not trusting anyone, thinking everyone will walk out on me, having trouble with letting people in, these are only a few of the things I have dealt with because of you. Your one choice to leave affected me in more than a million ways you could even imagine. I realized, you just don’t matter anymore. You put yourself first instead of your children.
Because of you, I am strong. You leaving made me realize that not everything works out, and that’s okay. I’m a wiser person when it comes to relationships, surprisingly putting up a wall actually helps. I don’t believe everything I hear because you are the king of lies, it helps me now, knowing to not trust everyone you meet. You leaving made me learn a lot of life lessons at a young age, it made me into the independent woman I am today. My life is great now, and I forgive you for the mistakes you made. Dads are supposed to make their daughters stronger, and that’s exactly what you did.
