Dear twins,

I don't know what exactly happened to you both, but I hope somewhere and somehow you have found peace. I write this to you to say that I love you. Although I was never able to fully meet you, there's a feeling I have that tells me you would be the most extraordinary people.

I wish that we could have met and I could've spoiled you both but life is difficult in that way.

Your mom is doing well and keeping busy. I'm positive she would love to see you both at home while your sister and I are away at school. You both would have been amazed at the strength she has and how she stays positive no matter what occurs. You would've been the luckiest twins to have her for a mother, as I know I am.

I know you both would have gotten a hard work ethic from your father and would never have given up on anything. He would have taught you courage and strength just as he has taught me. Although he can be tough at times and hard to agree with, he's the most caring man I've ever met.

Also, your sister would've loved to meet you both. As she has molded me into the person I am today, she sure would've done the same for you. She's an incredibly strong individual and would've protected you from any high school bullies and comfort you at your worst days as a young teen exploring the world.

I wish I could see you grow up and be by your side through it all. I wish I could've been there to help you through the difficulties of high school and finding out what your passions are. It would've been incredible to look to you both for inspiration to stay young and innocent.

I wish you could've felt the warmth of a Christmas fire or the grass on your feet in the summer. I wish you could've fallen in love and met someone to make you the happiest person in the world. Your intelligence would've shocked many, go to college and amaze everyone.

But, I also wish you could've experienced heartbreak and loss to help you become stronger and more understanding people. I would like to say that life is amazing and easy, but that would be a complete lie. Although there are things that would have knocked you down, it's not fair that you cannot experience getting back on your feet and succeeding greatly.

You both would've brought something incredibly special to this world that's now missing, unfortunately. Like I said, life is difficult in that way.

More simple than all of this, I wish you could've found yourself in this world. I believe that somewhere out there you're looking down on me and wishing for the best as I would've wished for you. Again, I love you both and someday I hope we can finally meet.

Sincerely,

Your older sister