Trust.
Trusting in the Lord, it is something you are told to do every single day of your life, but you are never told how hard it will actually be. Often, we think that trusting in the Lord means everything in your life will go great and smooth. From what I have experienced, it is the complete opposite. Trusting in the Lord mostly coincides with being obedient to the Lord, and that is not always a great thing for what our worldly hearts yearn for.
There are times when your heart has made a choice. You know the boy you like, you know the job you want, and you have everything planned out. Suddenly you say a prayer that you are going to trust the Lord with all your heart. You aren’t saying this prayer loosely, you say it with the desire to trust in the awesome God that has changed your life, so you say amen, take a step forward, and suddenly it has all changed.
That same boy that you were head over heals for, just doesn’t feel the same way. Though your heart is broken, there is a peace as you fall to your knees in prayer and just say, “I am trusting you”.
The career you have wanted since you are 7 is now so far out of reach. And so the changing of majors begins. You are confused, discouraged, but still you close your eyes and say, “I trust you”.
Everything you have ever planned out is suddenly falling to pieces. You heart and your plans, they have all fallen apart, but still through the tears you somehow get out the words, “I still trust you”.
You didn’t realize that when you said you were trusting the Lord that that meant everything you had planned yourself would be completely destroyed. Your friends will try to comfort you and they will feel genuinely upset for the trial you have been experiencing, but for some reason you are okay. You are able to smile and say that although what you have been going through is hard, our God is so much bigger and that ever since you started trusting Him your heart has been at a peace that you cannot explain.
I wish I could end this article by telling you that since I have been trusting the Lord, I now have everything figured out and it was all by the grace of God, but I would be lying. I don’t have it figured out, and I never will. My heart still aches from day to day, and I am still confused on what my future holds, but why is that a bad thing? Our awesome God has planned out our whole entire lives before we were even a thought in our parent’s mind. This means we no longer have to worry about the boy we will marry, the job we will have, or the life we will live because that has already been lined up for us.
Trusting in the Lord is something you are told to do every single day of your life, but you are never told how hard it will actually be. When you decide to trust the Lord with your whole heart, that trust is going to be tested. The Lord is going to wreck your life and you are going to have to trust that you will build yourself back up in Him. It is going to be hard, and you are going to constantly doubt yourself, but I can promise that it will be worth it. It will be worth it because anything that the Lord has planned for you is 10x better than anything you could have ever planned.
So do this with me.
Close you eyes, say a prayer, and surrender all the one that loves us the most.
