After some time, I start to feel like I'm trapped.

Going through the same cycle every single day can get boring and repetitive to almost every person; but it's a comfort that they like. What they go through every day has at least some sort of base - a consistent schedule that keeps them sane. While I'm not the biggest fan of change, without a little bit of it I easily start to feel trapped in my day to day life.

I first noticed this in me in high school. I was always one of four places: Home, School, Band (be it practice or show), or Church. For four years in a row every day of my life was the same. I went to school, had band after school, and had church on Sundays. If I wasn't at one of those three places I was home. It became so repetitive and boring to the point where I felt like I was trapped in an endless cycle.

While some might say "oh that was just high school", I can say It's not. To me, it's even worse at college. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love Huntington University and the people here, but I'm stuck. I can't easily leave the campus, and a trip to WaMart at two in the morning with a group of friends is my new idea of an adventure. I feel so trapped in my day to day life and it's gotten to the point where I can recite my weekly schedule in less than five minutes.

I feel like I'm stuck in an arena or a zoo, walking paths well known and well worn, wanting to take the left for instead of the right but instead take the right just because I know it so well. I long for something new, but something new is the one thing I just simply can't have.

I always end up feeling trapped in the end.