Losing both your parents at a young age changes your life forever. I often wonder if you were both still here what would my life be like? Would you still be together? Would I be the person I am? I may never know.

Dad, I was so young when I lost you I didn't understand. Growing up I now understand. I lost you almost 17 years ago, and I wish I had gotten to know you. It hurts to think about you because I wished I had known my father but I was too young. I have heard all the stories about you, and I think I may have found where I get my wildness from.

Mom, you are the one that really hurt me. I remember you, and sometimes I wish I didn't. I remember watching you kill yourself my whole childhood. All the toxins you put into your body was just a suicide mission. I'm sorry you were hurting so bad. I'm sorry we never got to see eye to eye. I wished I could have changed the way things were. People always say to me “Someone raised you right", and for you I can say thank you, cause I learned what I didn't want to become. I hold a lot of hurt and anger for the things we went through and watched you do to yourself. Hard to believe it's been ten years. As hurt as I am, I'm sorry mom. I love you. May you finally be free from addiction and depression.

I hope the both of you are looking down at me and saying that's my kid.