I wish you could've met my mom..
I find myself saying this phrase over and over throughout my life. As I grow older, meet new people and experience new things, I wish my mom were here to experience them with me. I wish I was able to call her on the phone just to tell her about my day and what I ate for lunch. Isn't that what mothers do? Listen to you tell her about how good your pasta was for lunch. I wonder what it would be like to take her to a baseball game or winery tour, or show her around campus or bring her into work. I wish that she could be there to give me advice about the future and see me graduate one day. I will always wonder what my experiences would've been like if I could spend them with her. Since my moms death, there has been a gaping hole in my life that I know I will never truly be able to fill. There are so many things that I wish she was here to see and experience with me.
To my friends after high school:
I wish you could've met my mom because she would've made you laugh. I wish she was here to playfully torment us and give us a hard time for being young and dumb. I wish she was here take us to dinner or come shopping with us, and see why I have chosen you as my friends. I know she would've liked you, because you are such a support system to me. You are truly the kind of friends that a parent can only hope their child will find. I know you would've liked her because she was a loving and caring mother who would've been there for you even if you weren't hers.
To my bosses and coworkers,
I wish you could've met my mom because you would see why I am so motivated to succeed. You would get a glimpse into the genius woman who inspires me to do my best and work hard. My mother's own perfectionism is what drives me to also achieve perfection. Although I will never be as smart as she was, I will never stop trying to be. If you met her, it would become obvious that the reason I work so hard is because all I ever want to do is make her proud.
So to everyone who has not met my mother, I am sorry that you missed out on such a remarkable woman. While it seems so unfair that there is so much that she is not here to experience, I will always consider myself lucky that I had 14 beautiful years with her. My life will never be the same without her and I will always wish that she were here. Yet, I will forever cherish the memories that I do have and continue to tell people about the wonderful woman that she was.
