Hey you. Yeah, I was in your shoes not too long ago. I still am you some days. I like to run from my problems. Procrastination was my best friend.
Wondering what I was supposed to be doing, where I was going in life and how I was ever going to make it through my current 'crisis'. Wondering if God's plan was my plan and considering every few weeks that the solution to my problems was picking up everything and moving 1000 miles away- that running away was the answer. I ran from bad relationships, bad friendships, bad thoughts, bad actions and a bad relationship with myself (yes you can do it-and yes it's one of the more idiotic decisions I've made).
I ran so fast and far that when I would look back my problem seemed as small as a mustard seed, but then I would take a break from running, and the problem showed up twice as fast as I could run. Running doesn't solve the problem, it simply prolongs the confrontation or solution. Running is long, tiresome and generally, you end up more damaged than if you took the initial blow of facing that obstacle. I ran for several years. Procrastination was the worst running I participated in. I generally put off things until the last moment. I had a propensity to be late, to turn in assignments after they were due and to complete tasks in a rushed time frame. I always thought the action was worse than my procrastination but turns out I was very wrong.
I confronted the relationships, friendships, thoughts, and actions and have slowly and surely been working on a better relationship with myself. Confronting those things forces you to take responsibility for the issues you've put into the metaphorical pot and what others have put into that same pot and decide whether the mix is worth keeping- aka the relationship, friendship or action. Confronting requires you to be vulnerable to being wrong and also being bluntly honest with yourself. It requires us to be open with others and with ourselves- it's one of the best things you can do for yourself and for others. Confronting yourself can be the hardest, most conflicting step you ever take because come on- we all kinda stink as people sometimes and we never want to realize that we are, in fact, in the wrong. And with the procrastination, I nipped it in the bud. I began completing assignments before they were due, waking up 10 minutes earlier and attempted to finish tasks before the last minute- and let me tell you, SO much stress rolled off my back.
This isn't like a video game where you reach level 23 and you have mastered the art of facing issues in your life. It's a daily effort- one that makes you a better, healthier person in the long run.
