To the person who has my heart,

Everyone tells me I should be done with you. Everyone tells me I deserve better. I deserve someone who brightens up my entire day. Someone who makes my entire existence worth something. Someone who loves me unconditionally and will always be by my side. Everyone says that that isn’t you, but I see it differently. Why is that?

I know I should be done with you. I know I shouldn’t want to date someone like you. I know that based on our past, I should have walked away a long time ago. I should have walked away and never looked back. I have tried to move on. I really have. It hasn’t been easy. In fact, it’s been one of the hardest things I have ever tried to do. I have talked to other people. I was always looking for someone to talk to. Someone who will take my mind off of you and our past. It usually worked too; for two weeks or so and then I began to miss you. It’s not that I was comparing them to you and I. It’s just that it wasn’t the same. It didn’t feel the same. It wasn’t you and it’s you that I wanted. I thought to myself, well maybe I just miss you because I miss having someone. I knew that wasn’t it. If that was the case, I would have just continued to talk to them and would have had them to call mine. So what is it that is making me feel this way?

I sat and I thought to myself, why you? Why am I missing you so much that it is interfering with my life? After all you have put me through. After all of the mean things you have said to me. I for some reason can go to bed and wake up the next day, and forgive you for what you did. I can wake up and carry on with my day like nothing happened. I have never been able to do this with anyone. Then it hit me, I gave you my heart and I haven’t been able to take it back. I’m not so sure that I really want it back. Granted a lot of people think I am crazy to have feelings for you. People will think that I am a fool for going back to you. The thing is they are right. Based on our past, I am a fool to be going back to you. Again, you have my heart. That’s why I can’t move on. I can talk to someone else and hang out with other people, but I can’t give them my all. I can’t give my heart again.

We met at a wrong time in our lives. However, we stuck with it because we truly cared about one another. We constantly fought with each other because our lives were not where we wanted them to be. Except, we knew we wanted each other in our lives. I think that’s why we did the things we did to each other. Our lives were spiraling out of control and we didn’t know how to handle it. We focus on the negatives instead of looking at how great it was too. When it was good, it was the happiest I have ever been. Which no one has ever given to me. You were great for me and I was great for you.

The thing is, it has got to be all or nothing now. We can’t just say we are going to date, take things slow and see how it goes. If this is how we will be, it’s not going to work. It will only cause each other more pain. It’s got to be we are going to be together and plan a future together. We have got to promise each other we will work on things. They say if you love someone to let them go. That, if they come back into your life that it is meant to be. We let each other go and have found our way back to each other. We have to take advantage of every opportunity that the universe hands us.

Again, I’m a fool to be going back to you, but I’m the fool who fell in love with you. I see amazing potential in us. That is why I believe in giving us another chance at everything. This is our last chance because after this, we will have reached a point of no return.

Sincerely,

The person who believes in us.