Dear _____,

Man, it sure is hard to sit here and say all of the things that I feel in regards to the way you completely came into my life and turned my world upside down. You changed not only me, but every part of my life. I felt like I could not breathe if you were to leave and the pure thought of it would send an anxious shock to every inch of my body. The thought of losing you would bring immediate tears because I thought I needed you to survive. For all of this and more, I want to thank you for bending me.

I know, I know. Not only did I just thank you, but I thanked you for "bending" me. Let me explain. When you came into my life you brought me complete and utter joy. My days were brighter with you in them, a simple hello sent the butterflies flying, and you became the biggest part of my happiness. Things started off fine but it didn't take long for you to prove time and time again your selfishness. Your happiness was always the most important thing between us. You would make me cry and fail to realize the tears were your doing. You would use me time and time again to boost your ego while completely crushing mine in the process. Through it all, I became dependent on you to smile. My mood was dictated by your feelings that day. Through all of this, I completely believed you were my happiness when in reality, you were my undoing.

Slowly, pieces of me began to fade away in hopes of making you feel more strongly towards me. Pieces were chipped away day by day until I was left completely empty. I no longer recognized myself. The happiness was gone. You see, you always held me in a very specific part of your life. I was kept at a distance. You opened yourself up fully to others and could never do the same for me. What did they all have that I didn't? I was there for you through the hardest times of your life and that was easily disposable when a pretty little girl came along and showed you some attention. I tried to convince myself that you were there for me in the same way, but you never were. For you see, I made you the highest priority and you made me simply an option. Back then, I was okay being your option because that still meant I had you in my life.

Can you imagine how shell-shocked I was the day you came along and took it all away? You walked in and proved all of my concerns were facts and that I was hopelessly clinging onto someone I did not know. We did a lot of growing up in that timeframe, but through it all, my care toward you never wavered. I wish I could same for you. In fact, I wish I could have said that you cared all along. I was left without you and to pick up the pieces of me that seemed impossible to fit together. You had finally done it. You had finally ruined me, or so I thought.

Day by day, I began to pick up the pieces. It took a very long time and sometimes I would doubt myself causing more pieces to break from the places I had already spent building. Time went on and before I knew it I was out back together again. I can finally look in the mirror again and see myself. So go ahead, keep those weak pieces of me. I do not want them for they do not define me anymore, but they will forever define the person that you are.

Since then, I have completely moved forward and realized that you were never worth it. You took my dreams and made them seem tiny and impossible. You took my insecurities and capitalized on them to hurt me. You would take jabs when I needed them the least. You made me feel weak and incapable. You were the sole reason I wanted to be better, but I was already worthy to begin with. You were hypocritical and judgmental to only me and not anyone else you kept in your company. You tossed me to the side when something shinier came along. You were one person with me and a different with everyone else. Most importantly, you made me care so deeply for you with no intention of ever caring me the same. For all of this and so much more you bent me.

For you see, the only correct word I can use for you is "bent." You bent me, you did not break me. Even when the pieces were chiseled away, I was me. I am amazing, contrary to what you believe. I am worthy of love, contrary to what you believe. I am living my life without you, contrary to what you believe. You bent me once, but you better believe that you did not break me. I am unbreakable, especially for someone like you.

So I guess in a way thank you for treating me so poorly and for showing me time and time again the things that I deserve. I now smile a lot more and have way less negativity in my life. I never imagined I would be able to breathe without you, but I am not simply breathing I am thriving. I hope that you have found happiness in your own life, I really do. I also hope that when you remember the pieces you stole from me, you remember to never take from anyone else. Thank you for bending me and proving to me time and time again that I am unbreakable.

Sincerely,

The Girl Who Can't Be Broken