To my favorite people,

Three months ago, I was in the worst place of my life. Life handed me the worst hand I had ever received, and I was knocked on my ass. And for a while, I laid on the ground, destroying myself over it. I barely functioned like a human being. You physically held me up while I cried. You physically held me while I screamed, and hyperventilated. You were lucky to get me to text you back. You had to force feed me. You had to text me daily to make sure I was still breathing. You had to answer panicked phone calls at the weirdest hours of the day because I was having another panic attack. You had to tell me daily that you weren't going to leave, and you were sticking around to be here for me. I was such a mess.

But guess what?

You never left. You continued to text me. You continued to reassure me every time I needed it. You kept inviting me out, even though you knew I would say no. You continued to make sure I was eating. You let me come to your house just to sit on the couch and watch TV. You flew out from another state to stay with me for a week. You sent me songs and poems that you thought would help me heal. You apologized and asked if there was anything you could do.

You listened to every single crazy thought I had, from asking if I was good enough, to screaming about how I hated him. You read all the crazy shit I wrote at 2 a.m., as well as the crazy shit I wrote at 3 p.m.

When I decided I needed to get up and dust myself up, you helped me up. You supported me when things started getting better. You supported the big changes I had to make to move. You held my hand through every hard time, and rejoiced with me for every new milestone and every new happy time that came my way. You supported the decisions I had to make to improve my own mental health. When I finally started singing in the car again, you sang with me. When I decided to change my hair, you told me how great it looked and told me how proud of me you were.

And here I am, three months later, not only functioning, but thriving. A place I would have never been able to get to without the undying support you offered me. I would not be able to thrive without you to thank for kicking my ass into gear.

Without you, I would not be where I am today. Whether you know it or not, you changed my life in so many ways that I will never be able to fully express to you. I am more grateful for you than I will ever be able to tell you. You are a blessing to me, and I love you so much.

Sincerely,

The one you stuck with