JroWhen you've had a lot of medical and mental issues throughout your life you tend to lean on the people closest to you in your life. Whether it's your family or friends or a significant other, you trust in them to help you and make you feel better when you're struggling. It's hard to go through hard times in your life without having someone there for you.
To my Parents:
I may not have always told you this but I appreciate everything you've done for me. Even if I didn't come and see you as much as you wanted me to or if I lied to you and told you about it later, you still loved me and didn't look at me like a terrible person. You never judged me for my actions and never insulted me for my mistakes. I may not have always told you the truth but when I did you didn't get mad I hid it from you. Even though you are my parents I feel as if I am the one who needs to protect you. I know it's hard to know that your little girl has problems you can't fix, and living so far away from both of you doesn't make it any easier.
The last thing I want is to have you worried about me over things that can't be controlled. It's been hard for all of us the past couple of years, and I know moving to another city is hard on us as well. I can't thank you enough for getting along even though you're no longer together, it has made my life so much easier to know my parents don't hate each other. Thank you for always looking out for me and making me talk about things I didn't want to talk about but needed to. Thank you for pushing me to do my best even if I didn't listen. Thank you for being my parents and my friends when I needed you. Thank you.
To my Friends:
You have been there for me through everything. Every mood swing and every sick day you guys have been there for me. From my friends through high school that I still talk to, to my friends that I met in college, you've stood with me through thick and thin. You've made me feel better when I needed it and pushed me to talk about problems I didn't want to. I try to be there for all of you and do whatever I can to help and I hope you realize how much I care about you all. I don't know what I would do without you all being there to calm me down and convince me I'm not insane.
You make me laugh when I want to cry and let me cry when I hide behind my laughter. I'm not the only one that has problems and I hope that you know that I am there for all of you when you need me. I'll drive the 30 minutes or 2 and a half hours to see you if you need me to. Thank you for helping me. You have done so much for me and I'll never be able to repay you.
To my Boyfriend/Fiance:
I'm not sure what I'd do without you. You've been through so much with me and you continue to hep me when I need it. Through all my issues you continue to stay with me and put up with my crazy. You make me laugh and feel safe. I can never seem to stay mad at you and even when I try to be you make me smile. We can act like kids together and have fun. You never cease to amaze me in all the crazy stuff you do to make me smile. You say things you may not remember that mean the most to me. You hold me when I need it and make me feel better. I love you and I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you.
To my Grandparents:
I am extremely lucky to be pretty close to my grandparents and my great grandparents. I sometimes take it for granted that I can spend the holidays with my large family and see them. You mean the world to me and I hope that I can make you proud. I am lucky to have such a close relationship to you all and I brag about it to my friends all the time. Our family is close and we all care for each other and I have no idea what I would do without you.
I was lucky enough to have spent a great amount of my childhood with my grandpa before he passed away. I will always cherish those memories and remember how amazing he was. I wish I could've spent more time with him in his last months but I know he was proud of me and happy that I was in college and he got to see me cheer in college, which was something I've always wanted to do. After he passed I have been making sure not to take my grandparents for granted. Sometimes it takes something drastic to make you realize the amazing family you have. I am lucky enough to know that now and will always be thankful you all love me so much. I love you guys. Thank you for everything.
To my Siblings:
We haven't all always been close. We go through spurts of getting closer to each other and we continue to learn things about each other. But, we always look out for each other. I look out for every one of you and always will. Even if we fight we still love each other. We have our ups and downs and we don't always talk but it doesn't mean I don't love you.
No matter what you have put me through, you're still my family and I'll be there if you need me. If I'm hard on you, it's because I want the best for you, especially if I feel like you're not helping yourself or not doing the right thing. I want you safe and happy. That is the end goal. I love you all.
You all have done so much for me. I can't thank you enough for being so involved in my life and actually caring. I love you all.
