I’ve spent a few years under your control and I am really really tired of it. I totally get it feeling in charge is the best thing ever, but could you, ya know? Quit it? I am emotionally, physically, and mentally tired of being under your control and I will not take it anymore. I thought we were friends and I thought I could trust you and I thought we were okay, but we're not. I just can't sit here and think that everything’s alright over and over again, but thanks for trying. I have spent the time that you have spent hurting me questioning everything I do, because I thought it must be my fault. It's not, though, and you won't find yourself by punishing me.

I am sorry for whatever hurt you. I know you only hurt me because you were hurt before, and that kills me. I just am so tired of you doing the same to me. I am sorry someone emotionally scarred you to the point you lost yourself. I won't let you hurt me anymore though. My family, my friends, and my future kids won't know the pain you caused, and I will never let them understand the pain a person can cause, either.

I am thinking of you and praying for you all of the time. I haven't given up on you yet - I am constantly worried about you. I don't want you to ever think someone is not on your side, so I forgive you. I always do and I always will. I don't know what it is, but I will always and forever have cared for you beyond comparison to what you care for me.

I am on your side whether or not you're on mine. I love you whether or not you love me back. I think of you, and I only think good things, despite the vicious things that come to your mind when you think of me. I forgive you whether or not you forgive yourself.

Sincerely,

The One You Lost Control Over.