To The Me I Used To Be

To The Me I Used To Be

You had no idea that I was coming.

This here goes out to the me I used to be. The me who never knew her self-worth, the me who couldn't look in the mirror and like the reflection she saw. The me who didn't have the confidence to be herself. The me who thought she needed to conform to fit in with the crowd.

This here goes out to the me I used to be, because I wouldn't be here today without her. I wouldn't be here today, stronger than ever, happier than ever, and more confident than ever, had I never felt completely and utterly worthless. I wouldn't be able to appreciate the wondrous sensation of feeling incredible in my own skin had I never hated the skin that I was in. I wouldn't be able to push through difficult situations with a smile on my face had I never experienced what it's like to take on endless tear filled hours.

The me I used to be will always be a part of me. She will always be my backbone, my building block. She will always be what keeps me afloat, because although she was me at my weakest, she has created me at my strongest.

The me that I used to be will always be my constant reminder. She will always prove to me how far I have come, that even on those days where I feel like everything is falling apart, I'm actually so much better off than I used to be.

I am not ashamed of the me that I used to be. I will never deny her existence or try to hide any piece of her. She is just as much of me as the me I am today, and the me I will be tomorrow. I will never be ashamed of the lessons that I have learned through her, for without them, I would have found no self improvement.

Though I am not ashamed of the me that I used to be, I am not proud of her either. I am not proud of the way that she made me feel, the pain and the hurt that she caused me to endure. I am not proud of the nights she sent me spiraling into the deepest and darkest of thoughts, because the me I am today is so much more than that.

I am proud of the me that I am today, the me that the me I used to be has led me to. I am proud of the vibrant, carefree, beaming me that I am today. I am proud of the confidence that I have bestowed upon myself, the confidence that allows me to wear a smile each day and completely mean it with all of my heart. I am proud of the battles I have overcome, the obstacles I have surpassed, and the struggles I have untangled.

So, this here goes out to the me I used to be. The me that had no idea that she would turn into what she is today. The me that has worked so hard to get to where she is, and the me that will never turn back.

Cover Image Credit: Jenna Rutkey

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To The Girl Struggling With Her Body Image

It's not about the size of your jeans, but the size of your heart, soul, and spirit.


To the girl struggling with her body image,

You are more than the number on the scale. You are more than the number on your jeans and dresses. You are way more than the number of pounds you've gained or lost in whatever amount of time.

Weight is defined as the quantity of matter contained by a body or object. Weight does not define your self-worth, ambition or potential.

So many girls strive for validation through the various numbers associated with body image and it's really so sad seeing such beautiful, incredible women become discouraged over a few numbers that don't measure anything of true significance.

Yes, it is important to live a healthy lifestyle. Yes, it is important to take care of yourself. However, taking care of yourself includes your mental health as well. Neglecting either your mental or physical health will inflict problems on the other. It's very easy to get caught up in the idea that you're too heavy or too thin, which results in you possibly mistreating your body in some way.

Your body is your special, beautiful temple. It harbors all of your thoughts, feelings, characteristics, and ideas. Without it, you wouldn't be you. If you so wish to change it in a healthy way, then, by all means, go ahead. With that being said, don't make changes to impress or please someone else. You are the only person who is in charge of your body. No one else has the right to tell you whether or not your body is good enough. If you don't satisfy their standards, then you don't need that sort of negative influence in your life. That sort of manipulation and control is extremely unhealthy in its own regard.

Do not hold back on things you love or want to do because of how you interpret your body. You are enough. You are more than enough. You are more than your exterior. You are your inner being, your spirit. A smile and confidence are the most beautiful things you can wear.

It's not about the size of your jeans. It's about the size of your mind and heart. Embrace your body, observe and adore every curve, bone and stretch mark. Wear what makes you feel happy and comfortable in your own skin. Do your hair and makeup (or don't do either) to your heart's desire. Wear the crop top you've been eyeing up in that store window. Want a bikini body? Put a bikini on your body, simple.

So, as hard as it may seem sometimes, understand that the number on the scale doesn't measure the amount or significance of your contributions to this world. Just because that dress doesn't fit you like you had hoped doesn't mean that you're any less of a person.

Love your body, and your body will love you right back.

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The Football World Loses One Of Its Finest Players

Bart Starr passed away and NFL players, coaches, and fans all mourn the loss of the Packer legend, but his life and career will live on in hearts of Packer nation forever.


Bart Starr passed away at the age of 85 in Birmingham, Alabama. The NFL lost a great player. The Green Bay Packers lost a hero. And, the world lost a true gentleman. Starr's legacy has surpassed his accomplishments on the gridiron. He inspired not only his peers but the generations that have come after him. He is — and always — will be remembered as a Hall of Famer, a champion, and a Packer.

Bart Starr was a Packers legend. Starr led Green Bay to six division titles and five world championships. As the quarterback of Vince Lombardi's offense, he kept the machine going and executed the plays like no other. His mastery of the position was a large part of the Packers success in the 1960s. Starr was also the perfect teammate for the perfect team. His leadership put him in command of the Packers. Starr's time in Green Bay will not be forgotten by former players, coaches, and the fans.

Bart Starr's resume is rivaled by few in NFL history. He played in 10 postseason games and won 9 of them. He led the Packers to victory in Super Bowls I and II and won the MVP award in both games. He was the MVP of the league in 1966 and was named to the NFL All-Decade Team of the 1960s. The Packers retired his number 15 and Starr has been inducted into the Packers and Pro Football Hall of Fame.

After his playing days, Starr would become the head coach of the Packers. He could not repeat the success he had on the field from the 1960s teams. His coaching years do not take away from his legacy as one of the all-time great Packers. Starr was inducted into the Pro Football Hall of Fame in 1977.

One of Starr's last visits to Lambeau field was on a cold November night in 2015. Starr and his wife attended a ceremony in which the Packers retired Brett Favre's jersey number. Starr was the perfect personification of what it meant to be a Packer. His most heroic moment came in the 1967 NFL Championship Game. The Ice Bowl came down to a third and goal in Lambeau Field's south endzone against the Dallas Cowboys. Starr came to the sidelines and bravely told Vince Lombardi that he can sneak it in for a game-winning touchdown. Lombardi then replied, "Run it, and let's get the hell out of here." Starr ran a quarterback sneak for the game-winner and the Packers were off to Super Bowl II. Without Starr, Green Bay would not have won a second straight Super Bowl. His leadership in big game moments will live with Packers fans for a lifetime.

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Starr leaves behind his wife Cherry, his son, and three granddaughters. Packers fans will have a tight grip on the memories Bart Starr and the 60s teams created. Starr left behind a template for being a Green Bay Packer. He also left a template for being a good man and a gentleman of the game of football. He was a competitor and a leader. Packer nation mourns for the loss of one of the finest human beings the game has seen.

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