Hi there,

I know I don't show my feelings a lot and I know I hardly tell you how much I like you. But I do, I really do. I guess I can't ever say it because I don't want you to break down my walls and see the worst parts of me. See the terrified girl that has had her heart broken one too many times. The girl who smiles through the pain and says she's fine. But somehow, you've seen past all of that. You've been my friend before anything else. And I think that's what I needed. Someone who got to know me before they chose to pursue anything with me, making me feel like a person rather than a trophy. And through all of my tears, anger outbursts, my stubborn tendencies, and dramatic comments, you've stuck around.

This year has been tough, and you've seen the changes I've been through and the circumstances I've dealt with, yet somehow here you still are. It took me a while to see what was right in front of me, something worthwhile. I never believed when others told me that love will find you when you're not even searching for it because I always thought I "wasn't" searching. But this time, I noticed that I wasn't actively searching for anything, and that was when it all became clear. You were the one who stuck through my storm. You were the one that would bring me snacks when I hadn't eaten all day. You were the one who brought me coffee when I was studying for a huge exam the next day. You were the one who would walk to the library late at night while I was studying just to see me. It was always you. And thank God you stuck around.

It didn't hit me until our friend jokingly said, as we were walking out of a church, "Maybe God sent you him, and he answered your prayers, but you just haven't heard Him clearly." Heard him loud and clear then. I was overlooking such an incredible guy who is willing to go to the ends of the world to make me happy. Happiness was walking right by my side this whole time. That's when the mist began to disappear. I started to let go and let God.

When I did that, I saw the effort you put just to see me, just to make me smile. I saw everything that I needed and have always wanted. I'm sorry it took so long for me to realize that and I'm sorry I took you for granted. I'm just happy you're still here. I can't promise it'll be easy, because you know me too well. But I do promise to never let a day go by where I'm not trying.

You continue to bring out the best in me and I thank you for that. I thank you for helping me out of this mist and for trying to understand what I'm feeling even when I can't put it into words. I appreciate you.

From,

The girl who you saw the best in and continue to stick around for