To the man I love dearly,
First, I want to say how much I love you and our son. You have been pretty awesome throughout this pregnancy and much before. I know it hasn’t been easy for us as a couple. Pregnancy can put a lot of strain on a relationship, but somehow, we seem to make it through whatever is thrown at us. I know you work your butt off and are trying to get ready for our son's birth. I don’t always get to tell you how much you mean to me.
I remember the first day we met. We were working in the same department. For a long time, we were both not brave enough to speak to one another. I remember my old friend, Nate introducing us for the first time. I remember sitting at our lunch table, I asked if you wanted anything to drink from the coffee machine, - since I was already making my usual hot chocolate and it was going to be a 12 hour night. You smiled and asked if I could make a cup of green tea with a little bit of sugar. I remember the night my ride canceled after work, and you offered to drive me home.
I was a little hesitant... but said yes. That night, sitting outside of my dad’s house, we talked for what seemed to be forever. We talked about what we liked and were simply getting to know one another. You seemed really shy and kinda awkward - like you had never spoken to a girl before. I got the sense I could be myself around you. I didn’t feel like I needed to be guarded as much as I was in the past.
After a few times of taking me home, you had made it a regular routine. I offered to pay for gas but you always turned it down. One night after feeling especially bad, I put a $20 bill in the middle console of the car when you weren't looking. That night, you had asked me if I would go out on a date - nothing extravagant, nothing serious - just a date. I had said, let me think about it. When I eventually said yes, the biggest smile came over your face.
I look back almost 2 years later and see growth in you. You have broken out of your shell so much. I have become so much more open with you than with anyone else I have dated. It surprises me even today I was your first relationship.
You know how to make me smile and laugh when I want to cry. You know how to make me feel worth more than anything - even when I don’t feel it myself. You accept me for all that I am and you don’t judge me for my flaws. You understand that I’m not perfect... and that’s okay with you. You have seen me at my lowest and my highest. Even when we want to give up and throw in the towel, you always seem to find the little bit of hope that holds us together. It reminds me exactly why I fell in love with you in the first place. No matter what our families, life, or our friends throw at us to try and break us, we won’t let it.
You are going to be a great father to our son. No matter what happens, I know you aren’t going to be perfect and neither am I. What's important is we are going to do the best we can as Isaac's parents. I love you very much, sweetheart. I know it’s not going to be easy, but we got this.
Sincerely,
The girl who loves you too