Listen up, guys: We knew that you would realize our worth when it was too late, and we're okay with that. As a girl who has never had a boyfriend, but has been in that awkward stage of "almost dating" a few times, I've heard it all. This is not to generalize the male population or to come for your throats. Trust me, I'm one of the last females who would do that.
We're okay... Now.
Sometimes boys don't know what they have right in front of their faces. Sometimes they do, but they never think they'll lose it. Almost all people enjoy attention, and usually, we'll take it from anyone who's willing to give it. On the other hand, when you really have feelings for someone, you'll cut ties with anyone of the opposite sex. More times than not, we end up regretting how focused we were, only to find out that you're also "hanging" with Jess, Angie, Lexi, and Monica.
When we felt belittled, betrayed, or as if we were tossed on the back burner, we didn't get up and leave right away. Why? Sometimes I wouldn't cut things off with a guy who didn't make me a priority. I always had this "Maybe he'll come around," mindset. There's potential within you, but it was deeper than I could dig. I now realize that if you didn't treat me right, to begin with, then you wouldn't treat me right later. Eventually, you got bored of the chase, and our relationship became something toxic that I needed to get rid of. Too many times, the questions "Why doesn't he want me?" or "Why am I not good enough?" have been in my head. I've done too much to help you to be treated in such a way. It's not me at all, it's you. The only person that I ever need to be good enough for is myself.
It's not your fault... Really, I'm just not the one for you.
I can accept the fact that you didn't want me to be your girlfriend, but at least have the audacity to tell me. Please don't lie to me. Don't say that you're "not looking for a relationship", then post a picture of Instagram of you and your new "boo" three days later. It's okay to tell the truth. I'M NOT MADE FOR EVERYONE. Don't burn your bridges. You never know where or who life can bring you, even if it seems to be a repeat. I give out more than enough chances for everyone to prove themselves. If you hurt me that many times that I to turn my back to you, BIG. Red. Flag.
When I walked away from you, you didn't come running for me. You didn't even notice. But when you see me happy on my own or in a relationship with a new guy, please do NOT text me to apologize for treating me poorly or to tell me you didn't realize what you had. The apology will be accepted, but you will not be forgiven. I will not turn around for you. My journey in life is to move forward. If I continue to run back to you, I'll only be taking a small step forward, and taking five steps back. Thinking that you can open and close the door for yourself in other peoples' lives does damage.
To all of the guys who realized what they had after it was too late, I'm happy. I am happy with myself, my life, and who is in it. Prioritizing myself was one of the best things that I could have done. I'm on the grind and I'm out to live my life to the fullest without you. If, years from now, we bump into each other when you've matured and know what you want, maybe it'll be another story.
